Friday, March 26, 2010

Tri Training

Weigh in today: down 2 pounds from Monday. Still up 3 from last weigh in.

Yesterday I did a whole spin class, which was about 45 minuets of actual riding, then 2 miles on the treadmill. Spin was really good. I pushed myself harder than ever. My legs were already weak and shaky, and I wanted to see if I could do 2 miles after the class. When I do the triathlon I am going to have to swim first, then bike, then run! So I need to get use to doing those together.

As soon as I started running I wanted to quit. It was very hard to run after just pushing myself so hard on the bike. I walked and ran, finishing 2 miles in 29 minuets. That is good for me on the treadmill. I was running at 5.7 at times. It is so hard for me to run on the treadmill! I feel like all I think about is stopping, versus when I run at the track I focus on the goal.

I have been fighting a cold, and today it really defeated me. Horse cough, achy body, sore throat. Today I am going to rest and try to get better. I would love to run today, but with the cough, and I am out of my inhaler, I am not sure it would be a good idea.

I asked the Cycle instructor how long he thought it would take to do 10 miles on the bike outside, and he said 45 minuets to an hour! I thought it would take 30 minuets at the most. He said depending on the route, the wind, and how in shape you are. Uh-oh. I am feeling way in over my head now. Gotta keep pushing. I will do this, with the Lord's help.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Being on Target for Goal

To be on target for my goal weight by my goal date, tomorrow I should have a -41 pound loss. I know I am not going to be any where near that. To make up the slack I need to lose about 6 pounds a week for the next three weeks. That is a little unrealistic.... doable... but very hard. I am flexible though. I am just going to keep going and trust that I will catch up in time.

Last night a friend of mine (who has NO fat on her) told me how good I am doing with my working out. She said she is always amazed at my workouts and she told her husband she wanted to work out with me. Her husband said, "Yeah, but you can't hang with her."!! I was shocked that someone so thin would not be able to hang with me!?! That was the best compliment.

From now until my goal date, my 25th birthday, August 28, 2010, we will be extremely busy. Our trip to Hawaii in 13 days, my Mom's wedding on May 8, Davey's graduation on May 12, us going to Oregon to see family, then Washington to see my sister in early June. All the while trying to raise support for our move to Oahu in the summer, packing and selling our belongings, and taking care of all the details of moving out of state.

It is going to be very easy to quit and say I will restart when we are not so busy. Once we are settled in Hawaii. But, of course life doesn't wait for my wait loss. So my birthday will come and go and I will have not met my goal. NOOOOO!!! I can not let that happen! And what if I got pregnant with in that time and I was not even trying to lose weight? The cycle will start all over. I won't work out because I have been out of the grove, I will give in to all my cravings, and I will gain weight.

Seems like I am always saying how sick I am of going back and forth. Good for a week or two, then I go out of town and back up. But I have realized, it is always going to happen and I am just going to get use to it. I have always had a very sensitive weight... meaning it is easy to gain and lose. Especially gain. If I would have stuck to it with out failing I would already be at my goal weight, or I would never have gained weight! But that is not me. I love food way to much. And I am learning... it's okay! When I make my goal, I will be working hard to maintain. I will no longer be working out to lose weight... I will be working out to maintain, and, so I can eat and enjoy food! Truth is, I love food. I love to bake and to cook yummy food. I love to have people over or fellowship with friends, and food makes it so much funner. I know I can make healthy food, and I do. But sometimes when you are out of town, or at someone's house, you are not in control. So, when I fall off for a few days and gain a couple pounds, I just have to work out that much harder the next few days.

On Dr. Oz, a lady was on that lost over a hundred pounds. She gained the weight through her pregnancies, and she decided to try and lose weight. They wanted more kids, but she was scared she would keep gaining.. just like me. She lost the weight, and maintained it through four more pregnancies! That was so amazing and encouraging to me. She said something that I have really been trying to do, "If it is not a 10, don't eat it. If it is a 10, go ahead and eat it." She said, most of the time things she would eat were not a 10, in fact she thought maybe they were a 4 or so. Then later she would think, "Why did I eat that? It wasn't even that good!". I knew exactly what she meant. I will eat anything in front of me, even if I don't really like it.

Tuesday I did TKB and Power Sculpt. It felt so good to be back in class. Yesterday I swam 1/4 mile in 11 minuets and biked 6 miles in 14 minuets. I could have biked more, easily. It was around 5:00 pm and people were waiting for the bikes, and I was self conscience, so I jut did 6 miles. My swim was good, I tried not to take that many little breaks. I imagined I was swimming in the Triathlon. I am not sure what a good time for 1/4 mile swim is, but that is my best time yet. Olympic swimmer Micheal Phelps swims 1/4 mile in 2 minuets. All I can say is wow. I am a snail compared to him!! Today is 24Lift and Spin.



Weigh in tomorrow. Not expecting much... a week from tomorrow I hope to hit -37. I am going to have to start exercising more when I am away from home. Even if it means I get up before anyone and go running. I am finishing up my spring cleaning today. All I have left is to mop floors (already washed all rugs), finish going through mine and boys clothes, picking out what we want to sell at garage sale, and wash the windows. I love Spring!!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Triathlon and 5K!!


I have missed you all. My life has been completely unorganized and busy for over a week. I have massive cleaning to do and major catching up on eating right and working out.

I finally registered for the triathlon. It is May 1, 2010. It was $140! Yikes! I sold some things on eBay and I decided to register finally. I really want to do this one in particular because it is in a lake, not an ocean, and a 10 mile bike ride and a 2 mile run verses a 15 mile ride and a 3.1 mile run. It is just a bit easier than the others I found.

I also decided to register for a 5k. It is May 16, 2010. I am the type of person that if I don't pay for it before I probably won't do it. The 5k is along the coast in Santa Monica. Just what I wanted.

I am so nervous and excited about these both. I have major training to do. Last time I swam I did 1/2 mile in 30 minuets. I have not gotten in the pool for about a month though. Spin is really helping with my bike endurance too. I am sure we do way more than 10 miles in one class, which is an hour. Running..... well.... yikes. Last time I ran I did 1 mile in 12:30. It almost killed me though. The triathlon is going to be very tricky because even when I am able to run 2 miles, this time I will have swam 1/4 mile and biked 10! So I will no doubt be exhausted.

Wet suits are not required and I can borrow a friends bike (do you have one I can borrow? :) ). I was concerned about those two costing more money.
I have5 1/2 weeks until the tri and 7 weeks until the 5k. The Wildflower Triathlon is a 1/2 Ironman. Which is 1.2 mile swim, 56 mile ride, and 13.1 mile run. They also have a Olympic course which is about half that, and the sprint, which is what I am doing.

I did not do well all week on my food. I tried a little, but not much. I worked out some, but not enough. Which is why I am not surprised I was up a little on the scale. I am getting right back on the wagon though, Hawaii in 15 days, tri in 5 1/2 weeks, and 5k in 7 weeks. No time for dilly dallying. Weigh in on Friday, I just hope to be at -34. I am really liking the idea of not focusing on the scale so much and working towards physical goals. Registering really gave me the shove I needed after being away from home and our routine all week.

Today I am going to swim then go to TKB, oh how I have missed the gym...!!


Sunday, March 14, 2010

God is so good!

We had a scare Saturday night with some gun fire behind our house along with a helicopter flying over our neighborhood for a few hours. God is so good to keep us safe, especially with Davey working in El Centro right now.

Tonight we had Celebration Sunday at church. It was amazing! I love being a child of God and being able to serve Him! The people of LBC give so willingly and joyfully.
I really love choir! I almost started to cry a little during one of our songs. I don't know how people that do solo's do it.

What was really cool about being in choir tonight was, I text my mom to watch me live stream and she did! That was really neat. She text me while we were singing, "I see you! Wave!" LOL Like I had my phone on me.

Dr. Gibbs tonight said something that really spoke to my heart, "Everyone everywhere is going to spend eternity somewhere." Then he described that when you see people at the store or in an airport, they are going to go into eternity one day, and that God wants YOU to tell them! I am so thankful that on March 2, 2003 someone told me about His saving grace and I accepted His gift! God is so good.

We are leaving for Morgan Hill tomorrow at 9:00 am. I am going to try real hard to be good this week. I really don't want to go backwards again.....but I have to confess....this weekend has been a little crazy. All we have is Mac N Cheese and peanut butter and jelly! I sent my mom a grocery list and put mostly healthy stuff on there for while we stay with her.
Time to finish packing and get to bed!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

34 pounds gone!

I am so happy I finally passed the -31 mark I was stuck at all of February.
Yesterday when I woke up my tummy was growling so loud. I was so hungry from eating dinner early, then going to the gym and working it off and not eating anything when I got home.

I was so happy to get on and see a 3 pound lost from last week! Now that's -34. Yay!
Thursday's workout was amazing. I got there early for spin, but late for the lift class, so I did weights on my own before spin. It was a new spin teacher again. This one was good as well. Today, as I write, he is on a 100 mile ride along the coast. That seems so amazing!! He is older than 50. How encouraging.

In the Antelope Valley we are at 3,000 feet elevation. There is an awesome hiking trail Davey and I go to often called Devil's Punchbowl. Well, the over 50 year old spin teacher thought it would be fun to pretend like we were riding our bikes there. It's 4,700 feet high. That's 1,700 feet of climbing.

We started at a 7, went to an 8, 8 1/2, a 9, a 9 1/2 then a 10 for the rest of the way "up". It took us about 8 minuets of climbing. I pushed way past my comfort zone.... which is about a 3....and I climbed the whole way "up"! I was pouring sweat, it was getting in my eyes. The instructor and one other man that always takes that class, we will call him "Super Crazy Cycle Man", have both really climbed that hill before. We always drive up to Devil's Punchbowl, and I always think to myself I would never even want to walk that!

"Super Crazy Cycle Man" is insane. He is always at least 45 minuets early to spin and rides that whole time. He wears real cycle clothes. You know, tight biker shorts with the padded butt, a tight spandex shirt, and real expensive cycle shoes. During the class he is so focused and driven. He goes so fast and hard. I like watching him because it pushes me to go faster and harder.

After spin I did more weights, then the elliptical for 10 minuets. I couldn't believe it, but after spin, everything seemed to easy. It was like I couldn't do enough to work up a sweat. I increased my elliptical speed and intensity, but it felt so easy still. After that, I went into the sauna. I haven't been in it in a few weeks. Last time I was in it I could only do about 15 minuets. Someone told me you have to work your way up to be able to do more time. A serious detox it 3o minuets. I brought my book in with me. It was almost 200 degrees in there, the hottest it's ever been when I was there. People were leaving so quick, 5 minuets at the most. I always think of my brother in law in Iraq, where it's 140 degrees plus 80 pounds of gear. I didn't feel too hot. I was sweating a lot, but it felt good. I felt nice and warm and cozy. Maybe it's because I am always cold? I don't know how, but I last 25 minuets. I felt so accomplished, like I am improving in so many areas. Even if it is just sitting in a hot room, I lasted longer than anyone else. And in spin, besides "Super Crazy Cycle Man", I think I am working next to the hardest. Even though I am still very over weight, I can do more than I could when I was losing weight before I got married. In summer of 2006 I worked out a lot. I would run a mile a day, but I would do 1/2 mile run, 1/2 mile walk, 1/2 mile run. I could not run it all together.

Davey is working in El Centro for a week because he has spring vacation from school. I miss him so much already. Because he is gone, the boys and I are driving to Morgan Hill on Monday. I am taking the Pacific Coast Highway part of the way home. I am super excited because I have always wanted to do that but Davey never wants to. We are going to stop at the beach and play a little, then stop at Big Sur and do a little hiking (as much as I can do with two boys). I am going to try and work out as much as possible while I am in Morgan Hill too.
High calorie day got a little crazy yesterday. My sister in laws came over with their friends and made dinner and dessert. Fried Flautas (ummm... YUM!!!) and a Brownie chocolate Coolwhip dish for dessert.

I did do some walking yesterday though. The boys and I went with Davey to get his oil changed and he decided to get my brakes replaced as well. His truck was done fast, and mine was going to take a while. So I thought I would kill two birds with one stone and go to Winco to get a few things for the girls that were coming over. Davey dropped us off at Winco and headed on his way to El Centro. My phone had just died, so I was hoping everything would go smoothly. We walked back to the tire store to find out they put the wrong brakes on my car and had to wait for someone to bring the right ones.

I was very emotional already because Davey had left. I called Davey from the store and he was already to far to come back, and I started crying. The girls were suppose to be at my house in like an hour and I wasn't ready for them. We had left in a hurry... there was cheerios on the floor from Cody, folded laundry on the couch, and dishes in the sink. Mental note: always have the house ready for company! You just never know.

It all worked out, about an hour and a half later the car was done. I beat the girls to my house, locked the boys in their room, vacuumed, put the laundry on my bed, shut my door, did the dishes real quick, lit some candles, plugged in my dead phone just as the girls were calling to tell me they were almost there. Feeewww. Went to get the boys.... uh-oh. Shane tore his nailed coat rake off the wall, knocking everything from the shelf onto the floor. Great! Oh well. I kept that door shut too.

This morning Shane got his leather cowboy belt off the hook in his room while I was on the phone, was swinging it around in the air, and SLAP! accidentally slapped Cody right across the face with it. Poor baby.. he had a welt, but he was okay. Then someone knocked on the door. I swear the minuet I am on the phone the living room becomes a disaster area, a sea of toys and marshmallows on the floor. The dogs got out and my neighbor brought them back to me. Didn't I remember my mental note? Always have the house ready for company! Ugh!

Anyways, I promised someone some progress pictures.. so here they are! Let's see my weight journey so far.... I know I should start with my fat pictures, but I am starting with my thin pictures. I will be back there again soon! Brace yourself... I am revealing my weight! Ack!!

Me on my prom day...April 2003.. 140 pounds.

This is me on our honey moon around 160 pounds. Cute outfit, I know. August 2006

Me around 170. This dress is a size 12. A few months after we got married. Already packing on pounds.
December 2006
December 2007, right before Shane was born.


Summer of 2008
Me right after I had Cody

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Aloha!



So I know I already posted today... but this couldn't wait. We heard from the pastor of the church we were hoping and praying to serve at. The pastor met with the deacons on Saturday about us coming to serve there.
The meeting went really well! According to Pastor Surface, they were all in favor of us moving there. Where is this church you might ask? HAWAII !!!! Really though, I am so thankful for this ministry. It seems really amazing. We really prayed to be able to be a part of a ministry with a vision and a godly pastor.
I got so excited after the phone call I started eating everything around... this made me realize I am a very emotional eater. :-0
We are going to continue to pray the Lord keeps opening the doors, and if He does we will be moving to Hawaii this summer. I got to lose the weight.......I am going to live in the land of bikinis. Not that you will find me in one...
We thank God for answering our prayers. He is so good to us when we don't deserve it. I can think of so many more Christians that deserve way more than we do to go serve Him in the beautiful state of Hawaii.
Ps 37:4 says God gives you the desires of your heart.... and we will be living right by my favorite place in the world.. the beach. We have also always desired to be able to minister to military.
I will be very sad to live so far from family though... but they will just have to come visit a lot!
I do have some family history there in Oahu. My great grandpa was a Brigadier General in the U.S Military. He lived the rest of his life in Oahu and is buried in the military cemetery, "The Punchbowl". I will be so glad to be able to see his grave. What a hero he was to serve our country for so many years.
Davey and I have been praying about planting a church in Hawaii for a couple years now. We have always had a desire to reach military for Christ. Hawaii has many bases and the church we will serve at is made up of a lot of military people. Pastor Surface is going to teach us the ministry there in Hawaii and then help us Lord willing plant a church there. I know a lot of people think Hawaii isn't a needy area for a church, and it is too expensive to live... but God will provide.. just like He has. There are 1,000,000 people in Honolulu alone. If there were ten good churches there they couldn't even reach all the people. I think of all the military there that don't know Christ, and they go off willingly to a battle that could lead to their death and they have never trusted Christ as their Saviour.
I know there are many other areas that need good churches as well, but we really felt the Lord calling us to Hawaii, and He has opened all the doors for us to go. We contacted at least 100 pastor's and churches and the open door is right where we have been praying to go. Unless He chooses to close them, we will be so happy and blessed to serve Him there. I am so thankful we gave our lives to Him and to do His will, because His will so so much more awesome than I EVER EVER EVER imagined it to be.

Hello New Low....

Low weight that is! I weighed this morning and am a new low.. but will not reveal until Friday! Muahahahaha!
I did TKB and weights last night, weights and Spin this morning. I am loving how I am pushing past my comfort zones to doing things I never thought I could. This morning in Spin I felt like I was going to throw up. This teacher did a lot of different things than the last... including the terrible "Hover". That's where she had us "hover" over our seats with out sitting on it. My behind will be very sore tomorrow!
Davey has been working out at the school about 4 days a week. He is so lucky... his goal is to gain weight. He isn't skinny at all, but he had a lot more muscle when we got married. He lost about 10 pounds since then. What a good life, eating more calories.

Monday, March 8, 2010

1 Mile!!


Saturday I mentioned to Davey that I wanted to run 1 whole mile, and he replied, "Good! You can do it! It's easy. I'll show you." So we went to the track, and I let Davey "show" me just how easy it was. He wanted to run it in 6 minuets. I knew he could run 1 mile no problem. He can do anything! And I'm not just saying that because he is my husband. He has one of those personalities, "Mind Over Matter". He rarely gets sick because of this somehow. If he starts to feel sick he will say, "Nope. It's all in my head." then he won't get sick! Not always, but often.

Not me. Nope. As soon as I feel a teeny bit sick, I'm done. I'm defeated and I need my rest!
So he sprinted the first lap. Then he began to slow down, and as he passed me I could see he was feeling a little sick. He finished in 7:15 minuets. He didn't pace himself to good and felt like he was going to throw up.. but.... mind over matter, and he didn't .

It was raining hard when it was my turn. I started running and it felt good. By the time I finished my first lap it was hard to breathe. I had to use my inhaler which I keep in my sports bra when I run. I dreaded doing three more laps, but I wasn't going to stop.
I paced myself and tried to concentrate on my breathing. I prayed for strength to finish. I was trying to motivate myself by telling myself this was easy compared to giving birth. Then I would quote things like "I am bullet proof!" and chuckle to myself for saying it. I use to run with my Dad often when I was little, and as soon as we would get half way he would say, "OK let's go! All down hill from here!!" When I passed the 1/2 mile mark I thought about that and how I wasn't going to quit now being so close. I sprinted the last 1/8 of the mile... and my husband met me at the finish line. I wanted to be very dramatic and fall to the ground, but I resisted since it was raining and the track was all wet. My husband said, "Good job! 12 minuets 30 seconds! Keep walking don't stop. I am so proud of you!" I was so proud of me too. Seriously, next to giving birth to the boys, that was the hardest physical thing I have done... and giving birth to Cody was really really painful! I really pushed myself far out of my comfort zone.

I am loving all the goals I have met physically. I looked into my journal saw that I only lost 1 pound in February. Un-acceptable! But then I look at my goals and realized I achieved thee more off three of them. I had listed several fitness goals, and I was able to cross off four of them: 1.swim in the gym pool (January) 2. Run 1/2 mile (February) 3. Do a spin class (March) 4. Run 1 mile
(March).

I am doing well this week, and with God's help I will be under -31 on weigh in day..Friday.

We have not heard from the pastor of the church we want to work at yet. Should hear something by today or tomorrow.


Also I joined the church choir, and I love it! I wish I would have joined a long time ago. I love our church and serving the Lord. I look forward to Davey and I being in the Easter musical, "The Choice".

God answered our prayers and provided for our rent. I am sorry I lacked faith. In Mark 11:22 Jesus said, "Have faith in God." Today while spending time with Him, the Holy Spirit just spoke to me and told me to be thankful for all He has given me, and not to worry about anything. He has answered our prayers many times and provided for us and given us above and beyond we deserve. I am thankful for my salvation.
I am thankful for my husband being a godly man and for God having compassion on us and changing our lives. And because of Him, we were married and vowed to love each other forever.


I am thankful for Shane. We prayed so hard for a baby, and specifically a baby boy.


I am thankful for Cody. We prayed for another baby, and specifically another boy so Shane and Cody could be close together in age and be best friends.
Which they are.....
I've got so much to thank Him for!!

Friday, March 5, 2010

Spin!

So I was challenged by the lovely Sara to do a spin and a weight class together. Yesterday they just happened to have 24Lift and 24Cycle back to back, and I had already looked at the schedule and wanted to try it. Spin class was another goal I have for myself to try, but had been too scared.
Well I did it......and I LOVED IT!!! It was amazing! I was so sad I didn't wear my Body Bugg because I am so curious to how many calories I burned.
I have been really stressed this week, and I felt like I just took out all my aggression on the bike. It was awesome. The instructor was so intense. There was no warm up.... from the moment the music started he yelled, "We are going up! Let's go! Level 8!" I was not really sure how to get it to level 8, but I did make the resistance hard and I did the whole class, and I really pushed myself. I was pouring sweat, and I was groaning and making unpleasant faces most of the time... but so were others so I didn't feel to weird. I can't wait to do it again.
I did 30 minuets of the 24Lift, I was late. But, wow. I worked out many body parts I have not worked in a long time...and I am very sore today.
Weigh in... good & bad. Good: down 1 pound from Wednesday. Bad: up .6 from -31, so right now I am at -30.4.
Even though today is suppose to be high calorie day, and my day off of the gym, I am going to work out. I am very motivated to get below -31 next Friday.
I have had such an anxious spirit. For may reasons, our rent being due, my weight-loss, and finding out where we are going when Davey graduates. We have been waiting on one person to tell us his counsel before we could tell the pastor of where we want to go our decision. We got counsel from many godly people, many of who really know the ministry there, and they all advised us to take this opportunity. Our home pastor said he was all for it, but wanted to wait to see what the Pastor Chappell thought about it.
I have been so anxious and nervous and just wanted to know what he was going to say so we could tell the pastor of the church we want to work at. Well, yesterday, I emailed his secretary and she asked him if he had a chance to look at the written plan the pastor and Davey came up with. She emailed me back at 4:00 pm and let us know he thinks we should take that position. We were so excited. Davey called the pastor right away to let him know all our counsel said yes and that we want to work there. He was glad, but said he had a meeting with his deacons on Saturday to discuss it with them to make sure they didn't have any reservations about us coming to work there. Anxious again.
The Lord is truly teaching me patients. I know his will is perfect, and so is his timing. Whether it is providing for our rent, showing us our future, or my weight-loss. He knows best and is always in control.
Psalms 27:14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.
P.S. Please pray for the deacon meeting tomorrow. We should know by Monday or Tuesday how it went. :)

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Roller Coaster....

Monday and Tuesday were great. Great start to this week, and this month. Both days I went to the gym twice. This morning I woke up extremely sore, and my body was just very tired. Davey had a full day of school, and is working again today, then we have church tonight. He can't watch the boys at all today for me to go to the gym, and we can not afford to pay for the Kids Club right now. So sad to say, but after three weeks of no work, things are real tight, and Monday and Tuesday together is already $8, and if I went today that would be $12. It adds up quick.
Discouraged and disappointed I was going to miss TKB at 9:00 am, I went back to sleep. The boys slept all night until 8:45 am. Was nice to sleep in. I got up and felt very hungry and weak. Overwhelmed at all the work around the house I need to get done today, I weighed myself hoping to find motivation....
Instead of finding motivation I found disappointment. Up 2 lbs from my lowest weight after having Cody....
I am so frustrated that with all my hard work.. my weigh in on Friday, if I am lucky will be back to -31 pounds. Ughh!!! I seriously just wanted to eat anything.. but I didn't. Davey got home for lunch and encouraged me to stay strong.
I am so sick of my roller coaster weight loss. I would be so annoyed if I was an outsider reading my blog.. the last time I had a good weigh in was like three weeks ago.
I am feeling really stressed also. Our rent was due on Monday.. and we couldn't pay it. My husband's family is coming tomorrow which means I got to pull it together, get my house in shape, be a good hostess, and be stable with my eating (or wanting to eat) before they come or I will crumble and there will go four more days.. bringing me back up a couple pounds. I took some time to pray and ask God to help me through. I have resisted the urge to bake Muffins so far thanks to Him. I wish I had a punching bag so I could take out all my aggression on it right now!!!!!
Thanks for letting me vent Mr. Blog.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

My Monday...

The alarm went off at 6:30 am. Davey had just gotten up and was shaving. My bed was so warm and cozy. My cream colored sheets felt so soft, and my king size fuzzy, beige blanket that is right under our light burnt orange comforter was exceptionally warm and soft. The curves of my firm and form pillow fit perfectly with my neck and head. The sheer white fabric that hangs from my bed posts covered the outside of the bed from the top to the bottom and I felt peaceful and protected.
I turned off the alarm when I meant to push snooze. As I drifted back to sleep I realized I didn't snooze it, so if I don't get up, I won't get up. I didn't want Davey to leave with out breakfast. So I got up and made him coffee and made sure he had breakfast. It was 7:00 am now, and I was still debating whether or not to get back in bed. I checked on the boys to find Shane sleeping in his twin size bed, warm and cozy. He sleeps with three pillows surrounding the top of the bed because he likes to sleep sideways, curled up in a ball at the very top of the bed. There is a bed rail on the middle of the edge of the mattress to keep him from falling off, even though a couple times now he has managed to do just that. He was covered with two warm fleece blankets, and his cowboy quilted comforter. I touched his cheek and he didn't move, which means he was in a very deep sleep and would sleep two more hours at least. Five feet away from Shane's bed was Cody, who was on his belly in the crib, covered with three different blankets, one dis-shoveled under him because he moved around in his sleep and in the middle of the night we constantly re-cover him because our heater goes off at night and it usually gets to be 60 degrees in the house. I touched his cheek, not a flinch.
It took me about 20 minuets before I finally decided to go. I got the boys up and ready and made it there by 8:00 am. They really don't do well when I wake them up and try to hurry them into their clothes and into the car, Shane with a Toaster Strudel in his hand. The girl working in the Kids Club was late, so there was a long line of people trying to drop off their kids. When I finally got into the class it was 8:13. At 8:50, during squats, the worker from Kids Club came and got me and said both boys were crying. When I walked in the Kids Club, Shane shouted "Mommy!" tears on his cheek. Cody spotted me and began to cry even more and kick his legs like he was trying to get to me faster. I hugged them both tight, and we left. Both happy now and smiling, Shane shouted, "Bye! Dank do!!" (That's thank you). I wanted to go back at 6:30 anyways so it was no big deal, except I had to pay $4 for 40 minuets of Kids Club.
After 6:30 pm TKB I worked out my upper body. Arms, shoulders, back and chest. Felt great.
Yesterday's calorie counting:
Banana (105)
Coffee w/ 4 Tbsp Sugar free creamer (60)
TKB
3 Egg Whites (51)
1 toast (100)
1 Turkey Bacon (35)

Turkey Sandwich w/ mustard, 1/2 oz cheese, 1/4 avocado, tomato, and a little S&Pepper (350)
1 oz Ranch Doritos (150)
1 Egg, Cheese and Sausage Toaster Strudel (180)

Pizza Tortilla
1 tortilla (120)
1/2 cup marinara sauce (90)
1 oz cheese (110)
1 Turkey bacon (35)
Onion and Spinach (20)
1 reduced fat Crescent Roll (90)
coffee (45)
TKB
1 sugar free Jello (60)
Total calories consumed: 1,601
Total estimated calories burned: 3,000
Yay! That's a good day.


I already went to the gym this morning while Davey watched the boys before he had to leave for school. Did 38 min of cardio on elliptical and treadmill, and abs. Hoping to go back tonight, but thank God, Davey finally has work starting today, so I am not sure I will make it to TKB tonight at 5:30. Child care is $4 every day for two kids.
P.S. We are doing really well with the potty training! (Shane of course, not me) =)