Enough Already

Hey guys. If there's anyone that still reads! Heads up! Im gonna be blogging again on the regular (for reals) so go ahead and click the follow button :) 

I'm super frustrated. That's why I haven't blogged. Here's why: my weight has fluctuated up and down 5-10 pounds no matter WHAT I do. Wait really? Really... I'm consistently working my butt off in the gym. I'm stronger and FASTER than ever. Seriously though! 191.8 today?! Dang it! BUT YOU KNOW....

Here's over a year of my weight records. In June of 2014 I cut out gluten, I started whole 30, and I lost 25 pounds very quickly. Since then I got down to 182 and then couldn't lose an ounce. This summer we moved TWICE and I GAINED 10 pounds! GAH WHAT! I worked hard to lose 5 pounds now it goes up and down 2-4 pounds and won't budge. 

I haven't lost inches since April.. but I can see muscles in my shoulders, biceps and my quads getting bigger which I love :)

NO I don't believe I should stop lifting. Scientifically muscles will NOT push out your fat or make a women bulky we don't have enough testosterone... ect ect. What I need to do is seriously look back: beIng %100 honest which hurts to do lol because I can convince myself I'm doing well. HAVE I been on point with my diet/ eating this last year?? No. Not for any length of time that could hold lasting results that is. On and off I am consistent... w my off times becoming longer. What i'm doing is maintaining pretty well with the exception of July. 

I tried counting macros for a week in January and it was so much food so I stopped. I decided to do WW again but was too lazy to count points so I cancelled it. Then I finally found a small grove. I liked eating low carb. Less hassle for me, I prefer fats, I FEEL good on low carb. I called this "Flexible Dieting" because I was still counting my calories and trying to hit protein but eating lower carbs. I liked this. It fit my lifestyle. I would do well a few days then a few days mess it up. Or I'd do good a whole 7-10 days, drop some pounds then go off track for a week. 

I went back to low carb/"flexible dieting" a couple weeks ago and didn't see pounds dropping with in the first couple days (I know!) so I was convinced it wasn't working anymore. I've been wandering around aimlessly LOL trying to find what will work for me that I can do that I ENJOY. 

The truth is all of these would work if I just picked one and was CONSISTENT!! In a Flexible Dieting group I'm on someone mentioned they are doing Cyclical Keto Dieting. It's basically low carb all week (which I like) then one day if a carb refeed to restore your glycerin stores and fuel fat loss for the next week. Some people might think this is poop but I'm gonna give it a go. I can have treats the day I plan with out going off for several days. I just HAVE to be consistent. I could be at my goal already by now!!!! I'm gathering lots of low carb recipes and making a grocery list and I'm ACTUALLY gonna food prep. What! I know. This is probably key to success that I never do 😁 

Ps I've been doing Yoga, along w running (ran TWO miles straight at 11 minute miles!!!) and heavy lifting. Getting stronger and I love it. I want to lose at least 40 more pounds. Even 30 would be fantastic. So there is it. All my dirty weight laundry out in the open. Let's be consistent and do this! 👊🏼❤️

 

Long time!

I have no meant to neglect the blog but life. I'm taking two nursing summer pre reqs that keep me really busy! 

Today I weighed in at 188 :( I've been good on and off for months but haven't gotten below 182. In two months I turn 30. I want to enter my 30ths stronger than ever!  Strong I am getting! I deadlift 90 lbs now :) stay tuned I will post update soon :) ps I fit into a size 10 pants now! 

SLO Half Marathon & it's been a long road

I did it! My 3rd half marathon in the books! It was SUPER windy and very hilly 13 miles. 😁 

I finished in 3 hour 12 minuets. Just 3 minuets shy of a PR! If I wouldn't have stopped to use the bathroom at mile 4 and wait for 8 minuets for the porta potty I would have had a personal best! Dang it!! My running buddy did awesome she finished in 2:45! 

I plan to keep running and work on speed now. 

Here are some pics :) 

The last two miles I was DONE. All I could do was speed walk. And I was speed walking very fast lol. One marathon group passed me and said "there's one serious speed Walker!" Haha! I ran the last 1/4 mile and the boys and hubby were cheering me on at the finish line it made me a tear up. ❤️ 

I was reading some old blog posts about my first few races. I started in 2011 so wow it's been FOUR YEARS!!! Five years since I've had this blog and since trying to lose weight. 

I get down on myself that I still can NOT get out of the 180's but I got this old pic in my inbox "this day 4 years ago" my first ever triathlon. Look at me from the back! I was 215 in that pic. 

That's just so embarrassing. But here I am from the back last night at the gym after Body pump and spin. 

Yes it's taking me years to reach my goal weight but it's ok. I had two babies and one miscarriage in those years. 

I don't clog <<< hahah auto correct! BLOG** often because I feel like nothing's happening but I'm holding my breath..I think I finally may be doing something that works. And %90 of it is consistency. Which is hard for everyone but God's helping me be consistent. I'll let you know ASAP :) 😘

Sticking w It

Surprise surprise when I saw some muscles coming in! I mean...what?! This was exactly what I needed to see the other morning. Even though the scale is NOT budging I'm gonna stick with Flexibie dieting because I can eat and I'm losing inches. So I must get over the dang scale!!!! 

It was/am so reluctant to do it because it's 1800 cals a day! But I've been eating that much, plus trying to really hit protein, and inches are falling off! 3.5 off my thighs since January!! How is that possible when I haven't lost a lb?! Muscle! I'm so excited!!! I've logged my food into my fitness pal now for 36 days. I'm just gonna chill off the scale and keep doing what I've been doing (eating, weights, running). 

The Curse of the 180's

Sigh. This is the weight I've been stuck at for 10 years. Well I've weighed a lot more than I do now but I really can't get out of the 180's (except when I got married I went down to 160 and when I was pregnant w Boy 4 & got really sick and couldn't eat for 10 days I got down to 165). 

When I got pregnant w Boy 1 I was 187. 

I was 220 when I got pregnant w Boy 2. I was again 187 when I got pregnant with Boy 3. And then right around 175-180 when I got pregnant w Boy 4. 

A few months ago I was 182!!!!! And now I'm back up to 189 and I'm TRYING SO HARD to lose. I'm running so much, tons of gym time, walking, ect.  I will go down to 187, then back up 2lbs. I could punch my scale in the face. 

I've lost almost 3 inches off my thighs and two off my stomach since January. Wearing a size 12-14. But I just can't get past the number. I don't even know what to do. So in the last few months I've tried counting calories/macros pretty faithfully. Stayed the same. I've tried not eating after 5, that usually works! I've stayed the same. I've tried Weight Watchers. Stayed the same. Carb cycling lasted a minuet I admit I couldn't stick to that (at least while half marathon training). I'm so frustrated and want to give up. I need momentum. :( I just need to see something work. It's super frustrating because if I stay the same no matter what then why try? When I *know* I'm getting stronger & inches are what matter but...... 

Boy my last few blog posts sure have been discouraging and like, "Get it together woman!!" 

I will. I'm praying God helps me and gives me wisdom. 

Update & plan to bust Plateau!

Hello, it's been a good while...sorry bout that. You wouldn't believe how busy life is ! Overwhelming too. And emotional. And stressful. Prayer, walking, and my hubby are what have kept me stable lately :) More on that soon. And it's good changes coming just very overwhelming. For now...lets talk weight loss. 

Good news! I'm down 2.5 inches in my thighs and down two pant sizes since Jan 1! 

I've been running LOTS of miles 

But the scale WILL NOT BUDGE AT ALL!!! I'm so frustrated. I've been super consistent for 3 weeks and still nothing. I'll be down two then right back up two. I think maybe running has to do with it, but I have to find a solution! I want to lose 30 more by my 30th birthday which is the end of August! Gah! So...

I've been doing some digging in about plateaus. 

Today I start Carb Cyclying. I've heard great things about it helping bust past a weight you can't get past. I'm going to try it for TWO weeks. And see if it helps at all. Here's what it will look like: 

Monday: low carb 

Tuesday: high carb 

Wednesday: low carb 

Thursday: low carb

Friday's: high carb 

Sat: low carb 

Sunday: high carb

I'll still be counting my calories/macros and staying under 1800. 

I'll keep Ya all posted!! 

Update

Well 2015 has not been my favorite year so far. Lots of trials for us one after another. 

Update on Shane: he seems to be all better PTL! If you follow me on IG or facebook you know we came home two weeks ago and he still couldn't use his left hand, he had arm pain and his feet "burned". All symptoms from damaged nerves in his spine. All the tests came back negative for autoimmune diseases THANK GOD! I used my oils on him when we got home and after a few days he had no more pain or symptoms and a few days later his hand was working! Praise the Lord. Google "mystery polio like virus paralysis in kids is puzzling doctors"...doctors never did know what he had but I truly believe it was this polio like virus. Even the MRI scans show damaged nerves in the kids in the same spots. 

Sadly, a few days after we got home my sweet cousin passed away. She was only 21, my heart broke for her parents and our whole family. I travelled up to davis for her funeral where SO many people showed up. I will miss you so much Cece. Death is so hard. I just saw her at Thanksgiving and I wish I would've hugged her longer and talked to her more :( 

The day after her funeral my husbands grandma had a very bad stroke. :( she is 77, and was so active, lively, sharp, independent, avid gardener and ate well. She had been feeling faint and weak for a few weeks prior... It's been so sad for the family to see her unable to walk and talk or move. We travelled up north this last weekend to see her. It was very humbling and sad. Praying she will recover!

We've been away from home for the past 4 weekends w everything :( I look forwarding to staying home for a good while and getting back on track. 

Today I weighed in at 186.3

I need to get out of the 180's!!!!

I have only worked out a handful of times since Jan!!! AWFUL! My half marathon is coming up! Today I am sitting down w my planner and highlighter and scheduling my runs and life. 

OH!!! BIG NEWS!!!!!!! 

W shane in The hospital, the Lord used that to speak to my heart (again!) about something. I felt like the Lord was telling me it's time....and that He wants me to be a nurse! My hubby has been encouraging me to do this for years. So when we got home I looked into it and the Lord just open doors and I start this month for my pre-Rex! I'm very excited and nervous I don't know how long the whole process will take, it will probably take me a while being a wife and mommy to 4 littles. And I am not quitting photography. Never! :)