Friday, January 29, 2010

Eve and the forbidden fruit...

Is it a coincident that Satan used food to get Eve to sin against God and that now millions of women struggle with the same thing? Anyways, I think God created Eve curvy. She was the original curvy housewife. Why else would she be ashamed when she realized she was naked after eating the fruit? If she had a super-model body she would be like, "Oh wow. Look at me Adam! I am super sexy.. hehehe.. come on over here you big hunk!" But no, instead she was like, "Ahhh!! I am naked! Don't look at me Adam! Turn around! Shut your eyes!! Oh my gosh, get me some leaves.. some really big ones!! Genesis 3:7 "And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons."
I heard this in a Ladies Retreat:
And God populated the earth with broccoli and cauliflower and spinach, green and yellow vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy lives.
And Satan created McDonald's. And McDonald's brought forth the 99-cent double cheeseburger. And Satan said to Man, "You want fries with that?"
And Man said, "Supersize them." And Man gained 5 pounds.
And God created the healthful yogurt, that woman might keep her figure that man found so fair.
And Satan brought forth Ice Cream and Chocolate. And Woman gained 5 pounds.
And God said, "Try my crispy fresh salad."
And Satan brought forth Caesar dressing and garlic bread. And Woman gained 10 pounds.
And God said, "I have sent thee heart-healthy vegetables and olive oil with which to cook them."
And Satan brought forth chicken-fried steak so big it needed its own platter. And Man gained 10 pounds and his bad cholesterol went through the roof.
And God brought forth running shoes and Satan brought forth the remote control. And Man gained another 20 pounds.
And God brought forth the potato, a vegetable naturally low in fat and brimming with nutrition.
And Satan peeled off the healthful skin and sliced the starchy center into chips and deep-fat fried them. And he created sour cream dip also. And Man clutched his remote control and ate the potato chips swaddled in cholesterol. And Satan saw and said, "It is good." And Man went into cardiac arrest.
And God sighed and created quadruple bypass surgery.

I definitely was defeated this whole week. This always happens to me... and this would be the time I would quit and say... "I will start again...." and give a date that is a few weeks or months away. I am not giving up this time though even though I feel like a failure right now! Tomorrow is a new day.
I did not weigh in today.. but I did yesterday and I was up a pound. I feel so discouraged and disgusted with my self at the moment.. which makes me want to eat more.
Today I got to the gym at 9:30 am for spin. I tried so hard to get there on time, or early to secure a spot in the class. It was already full. I have not yet been able to try spin because it is always full!! So I decided to work out anyways. I took the boys to the Kids Club, and at first Shane was excited about the slide, then he saw her... the mean mean old lady gym worker who seems to really dislike kids. The first time I left the boys there, when I went to pick them up, Shane was sitting in the corner crying. I said, "Shane what's wrong?" and she snapped at me, "He is on time out! Does he have ANGER ISSUES??!!!" I was shocked at her rudeness and said, "No he does not.. he is a 2 year old boy." "Well he was hitting me and we don't get hitters in here." I was curious to know how all the other kids were naturally perfect? I guess my son was the only one in there born a sinner. The next time she was there she felt the need to inform me that he takes one employees full attention. I said, "Oh really?" as I see him running around playing and having a blast. So I asked a few of the other workers how he behaves and they both said he is fine and he loves it. So today Shane saw the mean old lady and starts to cry hysterically. I just left. I was really upset and discouraged. When I came home I ate.
I called the gym and talked to the Club Manager. He apologized and told me he would take care of it, what ever that means.
This week I am focused and I am going to kill it in the gym... and at home.. I want to see -30 next Friday!!! I know I said the same thing last week, but I am saying it again. I am writing this to keep me accountable!!
A new motivation for me, is my health. Health was already a motivation, but a small one. I am sort of in denial that I am morbidly obese. I mean, I was not fat my whole life... in fact I use to be pretty foxy! I was athletic and active.... I was healthy. In my head sometimes I still feel like I am healthy. I don't have diabetes or high blood pressure. I have not had any doctors tell me I am sick from being obese. I feel good since I have been working out. I am young. I feel fine.
Then I read that being obese can cause, heart disease, cancer, fatty liver, kidney problems, trouble breathing, high blood pressure, stroke, diabetes, gallbladder disease and more! 300,000 Americans die a year due to obesity. Something that is totally preventable! Imagine you are 45 years old and you find out you had cancer. Then you find out, if you had not been obese for all those years, you could have prevented getting cancer. Whoa. That really hit me hard. I want to live to see my kids have kids. I want Davey and I to be active in our senior years. I want to live... and not just live... but live healthy. I have been obese for two years now, what if I already permanently damaged some of my organs from eating a bunch of crud and squishing all my organs together? Thank God there is hope though, and obesity is reversible. Wish me luck for this week!! It helps me when you (who ever you are.. anyone...if there is someone reading this) encourage me and tell me you are reading and cheering me on. =) Thank you!


Weightless said...

You're a funny one Adrienne. I never thought that food issues were dated all the way back to Eve. Sounds like you're on to something though. You know I'm cheering for you - for us ;-)

adrienne said...

Thank you! I am cheering for you too! We are going to do it. These types of feelings and struggles are bound to happen. Right?!

Weightless said...

Yeah - they are and everyone has ups and downs but preservering is the key to being successful. We are going to be successful!

gibbysgal said...

I am cheering for you! Know that you can do it! Love ya darling!

Are you going to SMBC Ladie's Conference?!?

adrienne said...

Christina, Thank you! and when is it?

Kerstin said...

So I am totally for you right now, and understand completely...This past weekend I was invloved in a tournament, and then my son was sick for 4 days, which kept me home and pretty much took me down a lot. I ended up scarfing most of a thing of double stuffed Oreos and then feeling the guilt of it, took me down further...I am not giving up either...I will stay healthy, and not gain my weight back. I will get to the gym tonight, and I will continue to try to live healthy for my Husband's sake and my Son's sake...and that is that...
Good job Adrienne...You are such an encourager!

adrienne said...

Thank you Kerstin! How much have you lost? I ate two packages of Oreos last week. Horrible!! But Praise God this week He is helping me and I am doing really well! Thank you for reading. Lets keep in touch and keep encouraging each other! I want to lose the weight for my hubby and boys too, and for myself. We are in the same boat. We can do it!