First thing off my chest: how much I need to work out. I have not sweat since my long run on Monday, and it's Friday! I have an uncontrollable desire to just RUN out my front door, and keep going until I feel less stressed. I won't though, because I think my boys would freak out when they eventually realized their Mom wasn't in the house.
My eating is, well, not being tracked. Sometimes I don't eat, sometimes I just throw food in my mouth. Right now I am eating 2 low fat Waffles with a tiny bit of lite cool whip and peaches on top. Too bad right before this I scarfed a handful of tortilla chips because all I've had all day is a cup of coffee. I can feel and see myself getting fatter. Confession- weighed today at 192. Up a total of 5 pounds!! I could just close the lap top and ball my eyes out right now.
I feel bloated all the time. I feel yucky and hate the food I am eating. I miss my healthy, scheduled life. LIFE is busy right now, and my healthy habits are not prevailing. I haven't been on track since before we left for TN. It's been way too long. And it must S T O P. Here's what's going on.........
Tuesday we announced that we got and accepted the job in Tennessee! We are officially moving at the end of this month. We have been busy packing and preparing. We are having a garage sale tomorrow to sell all the stuff we are not bringing with us. We've also had issues with our house, such as, dishwasher spewing out bubbles all over the kitchen floor, oh and a tree root problem with our pipes which ended up with waste overflowing into our bath tub. Yup. Can you imagine the clean up. Not fun.
Back to the exciting and happy news! We are so thankful for this opportunity from God. You all know we've been praying and seeking for God's will, and for a ministry to serve in for a very long time......long before my husband graduated from bible college which was almost a year ago.
We look back now and can see why we had to wait. It's such an amazing feeling to know where God wants you and to have complete P E A C E about it.
Oh how I am going to miss.... California [the sunny beautiful state of which I was born and raised], the Pacific Ocean, my favorite city: Santa Monica, Disneyland [Shane too. He has been praying for Jesus to provide one more trip so he can shoot the bad guys on the Buzz ride]. THE BEACH, Hollywood, MY MOM. Being only 5 hours from family. My church, my pastor, all my friends, my home, my beloved 24 Hour Super Sport gym, being 3 minuets from Walmart. Just knowing that if I wanted to...I could put my boys in auditions for Gap commercials. Diversity, crazies like this, that you see in Venice......
Having neighbors, having a backyard fence, having a Burger King, Del Taco, and an In & Out Burger right behind my house [literally right behind my house. I am looking at the Burger King sign now...] JUST KIDDING about missing these ;) got ya.
Hearing sirens at night [yes, this lets me know there are people out there], hearing the train go by, everything being close together, no curvy roads that make me car sick, not having to worry about snakes in my yard, the ability to see miles and miles away because it's F L A T. And.. of course.... all the wonderful and accessible, huge races California has to offer [obviously won't be able to do all the races on my race schedule]. There are tons more things I am going to miss. I know it, and am preparing myself for this huge transition.
BOTTOM LINE. God won't lead us where we shouldn't go, and when we do His will, He provides sufficient grace to get through it.
Sure there is going to be tons of things I am going to miss and I will cry over them I am sure, but nothing is more precious than serving God and knowing that what we will be doing, will be counted for Eternity!! Matthew 6:20-21 " 20But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: 21For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also."
I am SO thankful!! I am thankful that, God didn't allow us to move to Morgan Hill a couple months ago like we were planning, because then we wouldn't be moving to TN, to do God's will. I am thankful for PS 37:4, He gives us the desires of our hearts. I am so thankful, that we will still be in the USA, and in a wonderful, beautiful state! I am so thankful for the 100 acres we get to live on, and for the 6 bedroom 2,700 sq ft ranch house that we get to call home. I am so thankful that we get to have a big garden, chickens, goats, horses, and cattle if we want to.
I am thankful that my boys will learn to work hard on a ranch and not sit inside and play XBox their whole teenage years [oh..if you didn't know...I HATE video games. I am thinking about maybe letting Davey and the boys get a Wii. But my kids will not be allowed to play video games where they so vividly kill people, steal cars and see women dressed like hookers. Okay, that was just a side note.] I am so thankful that we get to invest in 13 young men, and many more in the future, and to see them grow into, hopefully, great men of God, and to know that we had a part in that. I am so thankful that my husband will now get to come home every night, and most of the time be working right outside our home. I am thankful for the Internet and phones so we can easily keep in touch with our family and friends. I am thankful, that God has a predestined plan for our lives, and all His children (Romans 8:29). I AM SO THANKFUL FOR GOD'S GRACE, HIS LOVE, AND HIS PEACE. God is so good.
I am hoping and praying to get my act together with my eating and making time to work out these next few weeks. I know driving 2500 miles across the country won't be the best way to maintain my weight, so I need to get a hold of it now. As soon as hubby is home today... I am off to the gym. Must sweat.. need to run...
Love, The Curvy Housewife