Thursday, October 18, 2012

A very difficult last couple of months....

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher thant the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

My absence has been do to an on going roller coaster of trials.  The worst is the present trial.  Not only did we get an evil stomach flu, then we got our car broken into, then we got another evil stomach flu, then we got several unexpected bills at once, then we had a huge trial with our house (needed fixing ASAP for health), then my TMJ flared up so sever.  Last Friday night I went to urgent care.  Was given Vicodin and muscle relaxers. Didn't help.  Fast forward (in a huge amount of pain all weekend) Monday I go to a Ear Nose and Throat Doctor at Kaiser and he orders an MRI.  That day I also went to a Chiropractor, $125. 

Tuesday I woke up to the roof of my mouth swollen and puss coming out.  Urgent care again. Two doctors later I had it numbed and sliced open to drain it out.  Then he said to see a dentist. Depressed and discouraged.

Wednesday I saw a dentist.  Yup. Infected back upper molar.  REally bad.  Oh and two big cavities on bottom according to him. I am pretty much devastated now. Not only did I have TMJ that make opening my mouth wide almost impossible, I need a root canal or a tooth pulled.  Great.

Today, I go to a dentist from my church and pay out of pocket for a second opinion.  Not only do I need 1 pulled.....1 need 2 pulled and 1 root canal and 1 filling!!!!!!!! Which really means 3 pulled and one implant. Or no implant because they are $$$. I am pretty much unwilling to do a root canal.

 Depressed doesn't even begin to describe how I feel.  Now, I know, it could be a lot worse, but I HATE the dentist. I have TMJ.  I don't understand why I have all these issues? I brush good, eat good for the most part, floss {ok not so much, but every now and then}.  I really think it is pregnancy and breast feeding causing bad teeth.  I think I now only want one more kid. A girl please Lord. Then we are done.  Maybe.

Did I mention that this is only the right side of my mouth?? Yeah. Who knows what the left side is like. I just got 12 teeth filled 18 months ago.......WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON. Seriously. 

Something isn't right.  If this keeps happening I will have no teeth!

I am on antibiotics, and I am taking immunity boosting supplements.  I am FURIOUS and on a MISSION to heal these cavities.  I know I know. "You can't heal cavities naturally." Well there is only one way to find out!!!! Tomorrow I am starting a semi juice fast.  Allowing organic meat and raw milk, cream. 

A week from today I have an appointment with the oral surgeon because, yeah I don't want to be awake for 3 teeth pulled. They are going to be doing a full set of x-rays.  I am PRAYING with all my heart that God will help me heal these cavities. And if not, well than He has a reason.  I know I need one pulled regardless.  One is dead.  But the other 3 maybe I can save. 

PLEASE PRAY for me. Pray the infection doesn't spread. I need His grace.  In my little pity party today I came across the above verse, twice today. Once in an email from church, the other in my bible app.  It was like God told me directly, "My ways are higher than your ways". Maybe this will heal my TMJ. Maybe it's just drawing me closer to Him. But I have to thank God for all these trials, because for some reason, He choose ME to work on.  He might do something through me, and is molding me to be what He needs me to be. 

Love, The Sad Curvy Housewife


Staci's Slimdown said...

Girl, I am so depressed now! LOL, kidding. I am the cavity queen. I also thought I would never have a root canal, only have the tooth pulled. Instead, having the implant was more $$ than the root canal and crown. I have had no problems out of my root canal whatsoever. I got a Care Credit credit card and got 0% interest for 18 months, small monthly payment. It all worked out. You have no doubt been going through the wringer lately. I'm so sorry. I have sure had my times like that, too. (((hugs))) Will do my best to remember to pray for you.

Tiffany said...

Wow. Will definitely be praying for you! I have TMJ too and know how painful that alone can be. I am so sorry for all the trials you've been going through lately. Something amazing must be coming your way! =)

Joyski said...

Poor you :( My heart goes out to you :) I think some people are just prone to cavities more then others even if you take care of your teeth. I am one of them. I know money is a huge stessor for me too... Sending some positive energy your way!