Thursday, April 16, 2015

The Curse of the 180's

Sigh. This is the weight I've been stuck at for 10 years. Well I've weighed a lot more than I do now but I really can't get out of the 180's (except when I got married I went down to 160 and when I was pregnant w Boy 4 & got really sick and couldn't eat for 10 days I got down to 165). 

When I got pregnant w Boy 1 I was 187. 
I was 220 when I got pregnant w Boy 2. I was again 187 when I got pregnant with Boy 3. And then right around 175-180 when I got pregnant w Boy 4. 

A few months ago I was 182!!!!! And now I'm back up to 189 and I'm TRYING SO HARD to lose. I'm running so much, tons of gym time, walking, ect.  I will go down to 187, then back up 2lbs. I could punch my scale in the face. 

I've lost almost 3 inches off my thighs and two off my stomach since January. Wearing a size 12-14. But I just can't get past the number. I don't even know what to do. So in the last few months I've tried counting calories/macros pretty faithfully. Stayed the same. I've tried not eating after 5, that usually works! I've stayed the same. I've tried Weight Watchers. Stayed the same. Carb cycling lasted a minuet I admit I couldn't stick to that (at least while half marathon training). I'm so frustrated and want to give up. I need momentum. :( I just need to see something work. It's super frustrating because if I stay the same no matter what then why try? When I *know* I'm getting stronger & inches are what matter but...... 

Boy my last few blog posts sure have been discouraging and like, "Get it together woman!!" 

I will. I'm praying God helps me and gives me wisdom. 


SarahS said...

Thank you for sharing your journey and being so real! I just wanted to offer encouragement. It sounds like you're working hard, listening to your body and open to new approaches. I don't have any concrete suggestions but I thought I might share that I never lose weight when I'm marathon training. I either gain or stay the same. Maybe the stess of the training makes our bodies hang onto the extra weight??? Just a thought. Hang in there! :)

The Skinny on Staci said...

Do you feel better emotionally and physically? Is what you are doing hard and depressing, or do you enjoy it? If so, I say forget the scale! You aren't the same exact woman you were 4 kids ago. Maybe this is your body's new happy weight? Not trying to be discouraging! Just saying that maybe you should keep doing what is working and not stress about the # so much. And, like the above person said, maybe it's the marathon training? You are doing and looking great! Don't let Satan STILL keep you feeling down after what all you've accomplished!

finding lori said...

Well said Staci! I was thinking the same thing. It so hard to fight a stall in weight! Maybe you are where your body wants you to be. :)

SarahS said...

Exactly, ladies! You said it better than I was able to :)

Adrienne said...

Thanks so much girls. I am learning to be at peace with the scale. I've decided I'm not failing. I'm succeeding. I'm feel great and that's what matters! :)