Let's be real.

Let's be real for a sec. Mkay?

I'm sorry in advanced if you hope my blog is another "I'm a natural mama with all the answers" type blog. For real, I'm still learning {and I share what I learn and what's worked for me} and I'm so far from what I want to be.

For real, I'm an overweight mama to 4 little boys who feels like I barley have enough time to shower let alone grind my own wheat. Although I want to. {I may have spent all morning looking on Amazon for a wheat grinder that doesn't cost a fortune. But then I said, "Who you kidding! You're not gonna grind wheat!" But then I said, "Self, I just may grind wheat if I had a wheat grinder!"}

If I was being real I'd tell you I'm not doing good on the weight loss wagon. 

If I was being real I'd tell you I'm a bit, (ok a lot), stressed out. 

If I was being real I'd tell you, I feel like crud from eating junk. Headaches, stomach aches, nausea, fatigue, my teeth bothering me and more. It's not just me. My husband has been getting regular migraines. He has had a cold for weeks as well as the three older boys and myself. 

If I was being real I'd tell you I'm so sick of telling myself "It's ok. You'll eat right tomorrow." 

If I was being real I'd tell you, I'm so overwhelmed with information of what we should and shouldn't be eating it makes me want to cry. Should I cut gluten again? Should I cut sugar? Should I just cook everything from scratch? Should I just count calories? Should I eat Paleo?? 

"Grains kill your brain" "Dairy is for baby cows" "Raw milk grows healthy families" "You must eat fermented foods" "grains are ok of you soak them" "Nuts have phytaste" "Soy is from the devil" "you should only eat organic" "grass fed meats only". Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

I'm being real. I KNOW what my body is screaming. It's telling me to STOP eating processed foods. 

I know the power of nutrition. I do! I mean, I healed a cavity. Hello. 

But REAListically, I want to eat whole real foods. It's a HUGE burden on me, what I feed my family. But I have a very small grocery budget. Realistically, it's really REALLY hard to get grass fed, organic foods. 

But you know what? God is NOT the author of confusion. 1 Cor 14:33 

He is peace.  He wants us to eat real, whole foods. He owns the cattle on 1,000 hills! I think he could provide some of that grass fed beef for His children!! ;) He created us! He knows what our body needs and He never meant it to be a secret. 

I have to STOP stressing because I'm listening to the enemy whisper "You can't afford to eat right, so why try? Your family is fine. You can eat whatever you want." 

If Satan can't have our souls then he wants to ruin our lives so we can't serve Him. 

Well I choose LIFE. Not just mediocre life, but ABUNDANT life. 

"The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, And that they might have it more abundantly." John 10:10 

I will never be perfect at eating. Or running. Or being a homemaker or a mom or a wife or a Christian.  

But if I lose weight, or do anything good, it'll be because of Him. My flesh is weak but my spirit is willing.  

"Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent? If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?" Matthew 7:9-11