Half Way

Weigh In 11-1-10: 192.0
Total pounds lost: 52
Total pounds to go: 52
Total percent lost: %21.5
Total percent to go:%21.5
Ultimate goal: 140
Total Inches lost: 27"
Calf: -.5"
Thigh: -5"
Arm: -2"
Stomach: -6"
Waist: -6"
Bust: -4"
Hips:-3.5"
Total dress sizes down: 4
Total dress sizes to go: 3 (goal size 8)

I am exactly half way to my goal! Exciting and also overwhelming. I think, "Man it's taken me this long to reach half way, I don't know if I have the patience to go another 52 pounds!" but I do and I will. I have no choice! I didn't make it this far to give up now. I am confident that it won't take me as long to lose this half, unless I get pregnant :)

I feel like I am more in the grove, it's my lifestyle now. It's not as big of a struggle, and I am not always battling myself to do what I need to do. It's just what I do now. I get up, eat oatmeal or whole wheat waffles for breakfast. I have a sandwich for lunch with low fat cheese, no mayo, lunch meat and veggies, or a can of tuna with a tiny bit of mayo, chopped pickle wrapped in a whole wheat tortilla and baked Lays, with a bowl of warmed up frozen fruit with fat free coolwhip, and I look forward to this. I don't desire the foods that use to have a hold on me.
Saturday night my sister-in-law and her friend came over and brought pizza (which was my idea.. genius I know) and low fat dessert (angel food cake and strawberries). I was so hungry and ate 3 pieces of pizza!! I regretted it right away when I felt full, bloated, uncomfortable, and immediately felt my gallbladder swell. It felt exactly like when you are pregnant and the baby is right under your rib cage pushing on it. I started to feel sick, and in pain. Luckily I had a vicodin and took it and felt much better soon after. I was so fearful. I don't have insurance still, so I want to avoid going to the ER or even an appointment. I can't have surgery to take it out until I have insurance. I really don't want to take it out! I am scared to get surgery! So is this a blessing in disguise? I have to eat very very low-non fat, NO GREASY FOODS, and not over eat. Hmmm... That is what I need to do anyways to lose weight! But I don't want to be on vacation eating out one day and have something with a lot of fat and have an attack and need emergency surgery. So, I am going to pray the Lord heals me, while I do my part to eat right, and hopefully it will get better and won't have any issues with it.
It all makes sense now, all the times I've gotten sick after eating fatty foods, or overeating since losing weight. I've read several times that losing weight can trigger the gallstones, and eating fat there after creates attacks. Weird, but now I CAN'T have fatty greasy foods. Blessing? I think so. But, I don't want to go my whole life with out eating a piece of cake or pizza every blue moon.
Davey is in Morgan Hill right now, on his way up north to take care of some paper work for the union job. I miss him already and have enjoyed him home. I've been depressed with him gone, and a friend from college lost her 4 month old baby last week and I just found out yesterday. I am so sad for her, and realize how precious life is. All I know is it was very sudden and unexpected. I've been checking on the boys all the time when they sleep and being extra careful with them.
Yesterday was a blast. Church, pumpkin carving, trick or treating, church again where we had pumpkin pie. The boys were so cute trick or treating, Shane would go, "Trick or Treat! Unlock it peas!!" while trying to open their door. So funny. And Cody was so round and when he fell he would roll. So hilarious. Thanks to my Mom for making the costumes. My sister and her family are coming tomorrow for a visit!! They are moving from WA to Georgia (military orders). Can't wait to see my nephew and niece and my sister and her husband! I have not seen him in a year since he went to Iraq for his 3rd deployment. I am planning on going to cycle today at 4:00pm, with the boys.. I guess I have to get use to it. I can't go to Coach's class tomorrow because family will be here, and I need to get in some good sessions for before Saturday! I am beginning to wonder why I signed up for this. :/ Here are some funny shoots from yesterday. The boys were pretty scared at this house.. it was a good laugh. We are so mean huh? :]