Attack-My plan to get off the 190 fence.

I've been going back and forth and back and forth from 189.6 to 192. I know. It's my fault. I admit it. There are plenty of reasons why I have not gone below 189. I won't bore you with them since they all have to do with being inconsistent. In December I made a weigh in chart, starting with January. Each week I lose I get a sticker. Jan 15 I was 189, then 191.6 than 189 for two straight weeks, and today I weighed in, at 192. Maybe because I am currently entertaining a guest named Aunt Flow.

Bottom line. This relationship with 190's has got to end. It's like 189 keeps going back to her ex that knows he's so bad for her. But she's so comfortable with him, so it's so easy to go back. Well, 189 has gotten T I R E D of mister 190's. She's ready to move onto a healthier relationship, even though that means being uncomfortable for a little while.

My plan, is to be healthy about this plan. At first I thought, "I have to do something drastic, like eat 600 calories tomorrow." Immediately I knew that's not right. That is what crazy yo-yo dieter/bingers do. That is not going to be me! So I've decided to forgo this weigh in on Saturday seeing as I weighed today and it's that time of the month anyways. Then I am going to eat my normal caloric goal of 1,200 calories a day through Sunday to just stabilize my metabolism, and my mind, and still be under my BMI (1,600). Monday when I am not as sore, and can work out, I will eat 1,000 for a kick in the pants. Then Tuesday through Saturday (weigh in day) I will eat the normal 1,200 calories a day again. Hope this will help get me past this dreaded number, and not be unmanageable.

OH. And...GULP. I commit....to NOT....weigh my self until a week from this Saturday. Oh my. I can't believe I typed that out loud. It may drive me crazy, but I think it's necessary.

I read over at Real Fat this post about a recent weight gain on her weigh in day (found her blog on Sara's blog list, and love it). She is a godly example of how to lose weight. She came to terms that a 1.5 gain is what it is and no big deal. I was surprised to read that from her because to me she is super successful! Check out her before and afters.

So now I don't feel as bad. I'm not the only one that struggles or gets stuck. But I am ready to move on from this "plateau" [self induced plateau that is].

I really want to say no to temptation, and to be consistent for a good length of time and see what happens. I don't deprive myself. If I want a brownie I eat it. Sometimes that is a good thing I think. I have not binged in a really long time. What was the cause of binging? The idea that I would NEVER be able to eat a brownie again. I know now that is so far from the truth. I will eat lots of brownies in my life. So no need to eat the whole pan today.

But there is a line here. If I give in to one brownie, it's not a big deal. But my mind gets crazy...I think, "There goes the whole day." Again, not true! That is why a brownie can get me in trouble. So even though I won't go eat the whole tray of brownies after having one
or two... I will stop tracking my calories for the day and go over them, even if it is with healthy food. I have lots of learning to do still. I need a Jillian moment. I'm close to a brake through, I can feel it.

And ya know, I can see how my ups and downs could be really annoying, but this is a REAL weight loss journey. I am a Mom to two small boys, a wife to a husband that does need me, and a busy homemaker. Life happens, and it is what it is. I am moving forward. [This is a pep talk to myself. Thanks for listening].

The photos from Surf City Half Marathon are in! You can see mine here. There are some really good ones! I think it's very unreasonable to charge so much for the photos as they do. It's really a bummer. I just want to download a few and I can't with out downloading all for $60. Bummer. Check them out if you want!

Gotta job jump on the laundry and take care of my little buckaroos. Here's too being consistent for 9 straight days.

Love, The Curvy Housewife