Roller Coaster....

Monday and Tuesday were great. Great start to this week, and this month. Both days I went to the gym twice. This morning I woke up extremely sore, and my body was just very tired. Davey had a full day of school, and is working again today, then we have church tonight. He can't watch the boys at all today for me to go to the gym, and we can not afford to pay for the Kids Club right now. So sad to say, but after three weeks of no work, things are real tight, and Monday and Tuesday together is already $8, and if I went today that would be $12. It adds up quick.
Discouraged and disappointed I was going to miss TKB at 9:00 am, I went back to sleep. The boys slept all night until 8:45 am. Was nice to sleep in. I got up and felt very hungry and weak. Overwhelmed at all the work around the house I need to get done today, I weighed myself hoping to find motivation....
Instead of finding motivation I found disappointment. Up 2 lbs from my lowest weight after having Cody....
I am so frustrated that with all my hard work.. my weigh in on Friday, if I am lucky will be back to -31 pounds. Ughh!!! I seriously just wanted to eat anything.. but I didn't. Davey got home for lunch and encouraged me to stay strong.
I am so sick of my roller coaster weight loss. I would be so annoyed if I was an outsider reading my blog.. the last time I had a good weigh in was like three weeks ago.
I am feeling really stressed also. Our rent was due on Monday.. and we couldn't pay it. My husband's family is coming tomorrow which means I got to pull it together, get my house in shape, be a good hostess, and be stable with my eating (or wanting to eat) before they come or I will crumble and there will go four more days.. bringing me back up a couple pounds. I took some time to pray and ask God to help me through. I have resisted the urge to bake Muffins so far thanks to Him. I wish I had a punching bag so I could take out all my aggression on it right now!!!!!
Thanks for letting me vent Mr. Blog.