Catch up!

Down 9.6 lbs! Sheesh I am a horrible blogger these days. Quick post to say I'm down almost 10 lbs! 

But.....I ate way too much over Easter weekend and am scared for weigh in day :/ 

Run or Dye 5K is in 10 days!!! And I have NOT ran 3 miles straight yet! 

Goal=Finish.  :) 

I will be back soon! 

Paleo Day 4

Quick update. In the car waiting while Davey is opening a bank account. So busy, so overwhelmed with all I have to do! Still missing my clothes, my silverware, and other utensils. :( 

Paleo has been good, and hard. Today is easier than yesterday. I was so grouchy, had a headache, and nausea. 

Cody's appetite has been amazing which makes me happy!!! It use to be pulling teeth to get him to eat! Now he's asking for food all day!! Wow. Very happy to see him improving. 

I was feeling homesick for my comfort foods. Sounds silly but it's true. I enjoy my coffee creamer and chocolate. Ya know? Yes you can still have dark chocolate but I have to find a good brand. Not my normal Hershey's kisses or Reese's Peanut Butter cups. 

Everyone says it gets easier so I hope it does! Last nights dinner was so good! We had church and were out and about. Shane was asking for mcdonalds, but I stayed strong. We hurried home and I whipped up bacon wrapped chicken drumsticks with baked zucchini w olive oil and seasons and strawberries. It was really good and everyone had seconds!!

 

Oyi the boys are eating soooo much! I'm gonna have to reevaluate the budget and shopping list to buy more food. They've gone through 5 bunches of bananas, a whole jug of cashews, 2 packages of bacon, 3-4 dozen eggs, and about 12 Larabars alreadysince  Monday..omgoodness. 

Sometimes I'm like "yeah I got this! I love This!!!" Then someone invites us over and I'm like "oh crud." And "do I want to live like this? Being scared of eating out? Never having donuts or muffins or chips? And always saying, don't eat that boys it has gluten!" 

But then I think of their health. Cody especially and he's already doing amazing. 

It's hard. It's a pain. It's expensive. But it's ok because we can do hard things. 

And after 30 days I plan to reintroduce a lot. Dairy, white rice, and hopefully oatmeal.  And I can make Paleo muffins. 

I love this statement from the book "It starts with food".  

"It's NOT hard. Beating cancer is hard. Losing a child is hard. Giving birth is hard. Drinking your coffee black is not hard." 

That's good perspective. And she's right! So maybe it's not "hard" but it takes getting use to, which is uncomfortable. 

Wow it's been a long time...

Life has been CRAZY! Guess what? Moving with 4 little ones is HARD. Few! At the end of the day I'm still unpacking and then fall asleep as soon as I sit down. Lol. 

We've been here 9 days now. I'm really liking it so far. 

The house is bigger than our last. It's nice open with lots of windows which I love. It has a laundry room...whoot! 

Today we all started Paleo!!!! So far it's good, but I'm really wanting chocolate...

I did ok on our budget ($350 for 2 weeks). But I'm realizing I'm gonna need to start getting Less and shopping once a week. I didn't buy any processed foods! Not even coffee creamer. Gulp. 

Shane did not like dinner. It was Honey Mustard Chicken with yam fries and kale chips. He almost barfed with the yam fries and kale. Oyi. We've got a long road ahead of us. 

"Why are you making the kids do it?" 

Well, lots of reasons. Cody (4) has tummy issues. He has hardly grown, and has no appetite ever.  Reece, Cody and Will have all had horrible croup the last two weeks. VERY scary. Reece had it the worst and could not breath well. Even a nebulizer wasn't working.  Then the baby got it, and it was again very scary. I feel like the 3 older boys have been sick all winter.  

There are more reasons but I'll leave it at that :) 

So very sad....all my good clothes from my closet got thrown away.. :( they aren't anywhere. I packed them in a black garbage bag (very bad idea) with the hangers still on them.  All our clothes for the most part was in garbage bags. 

Sigh. So I went to buy a few things at target, and I almost cried in the dressing room.  I can't beleive how FAT I am!!!!! I'm so done with it.  I hated myself in that moment. 

But now, all I want is a muffin, and I *think* I don't care about being fat. But if I was to eat a muffin I'd care after that, and be mad at myself. 

I need His help getting through the cravings.  

Will update again soon :) 

Walking it out.

So far since weigh in I've walked Saturday, Sunday and today. 

Very happy about this. The weather has been beautiful. 

Saturday I was still a little too lenient with myself & food. But I'm working on it. Oh! 

So my juicer broke again!!!! Same break. I took the last one back to Target and exchanged it for another one. It's been a year, so I knew they wouldn't take it back. I didnt have the recipt or box. And of course!! They don't carry it anymore. 

I prayed before I went. He heard :) Thank God the manager was cool. She scanned something similar and gave me a gift card for $65. So I got this! It was the last day to get a $10 gift card when purchasing it, so I got it for $30. :) 

Still working on recipes. Glad to drink my veggies. So bad at eating them. 

We are moving in 19 days. I haven't started packing yet. Smh. I'm such a procrastinator.  

Here are my walking pics for proof! 

Saturday: 43 mins. Baby always wiggles out of Moby. 

Sunday: 16 mins. Tight schedule! So bad at selfies still. 

Monday: 25 mins. Here I didnt want to smile because people around would know I was taking a pic of myself lol 

I cut this walk short because there were two gangsters in the park. I got scared. I'm a cops daughter and everyone is suspicious ok? For real though, two vatos walked into the park and one kept looking at me. The other continued to walk and one decided to hang back. I notice things...like the Dad that stopped throwing the ball with his kid cause he was watching this guy. See, he thought he was suspicious too. The gangster saw the Dad then left. Thank God. 

Don't worry I have pepper spray. But I should bring my doggy. 

Ok night. 

Ps no offense to any gangster readers. 

PSS I'm not discriminating. He had a tattoo on his head that said "Vato". 

Just kidding. But he did have a tattoo on his head. 

Ok. Bye. 

Week 2 Day 2

I didn't lose any weight last week. I didn't expect to.  I wasn't "trying" to lose weight {I will be trying after we get groceries!}.  I ate and prepared what we had, and we ate out twice.  I logged everyday but two.  Here's the big news.....I RAN! I got winded, I was SORE...and it felt so good.  I can't wait to go again. Okay so I walked/ran. More like walked...but I did attempt to run from time to time. I did just over 2 miles in 38 mins. I went alone...huge treat for this mama :) 

I have a cold, and so do the boys, and its revival at church, so I'll have to wait a few days before I can go again, but really, I'm pumped about it.  I listened to the "Half Size Me" podcast while walking, which I just found! Hello! Motivation! You should look it up on iTunes. 

I had a super frustrating day yesterday.  Besides my body fighting this cold, I had things to do for my hubby, when I get an email saying my BLOG WAS DOWN! Grrrr! I spent literally allllll day (crying many times) trying to fix it.  Google is an answering machine.. So for now, my blog is back on blogspot.com. So instead of www.chroniclesofacurvyhousewife.com its www.chroniclesofacurvyhousewife.blogspot.com
All the stress got to me. I burned dinner (not on purpose), so I ran out to get Mexican food.  I also really really wanted a donut.  Or three.  Okay five.  {I shared, I promise}.
What? This is the last donut I'll ever have I'll have until the next time I fail, and start over again.

I got to the donut shop and the Vietnamese lady owner is so sweet.  She remembers me from my regular visits while pregnant with Shane and Cody {that explains the 66 pounds gain eh?}, and she says, "Oh you have baby?!" I had Will with me so I hoped that's what she meant. Not that she thought I was pregnant again, because I do still look six months pregnant.
Then she says, "You go to grocery store too? Or you just come for donut?"
(You mean people don't usually go to donut shops after dark?)
I said, "Just for donuts!" Then she laughed and gave me a free donut. 

I had to have one last sugary hooray before we cut it out of our diet. Right? 

I am finishing up my meal plan and will be going shopping tomorrow.  I am trying to make it as nutritious and "real foods" as possible, with out braking the bank.  Let.Me.Tell.You.  Not easy.  I've been reading Sally Fallon's book "Nourishing Traditions" to get recipes and great info.  Some of the stuff is like: WHOA.  Other stuff is like: HUH?
I know I've written blog posts about eating Organic on a budget, but I'm now stepping into a whole new world....No processed foods or sugar. 

I reeeeaaallly believe the key to successful weight loss and healthy eating is not feeling deprived.  Well for me at least.  My husband has been sugar free for almost 3 weeks now! We all will be too very soon.  It's surprising how many recipes call for sugar.  It's taken me HOURS to find recipes that: A. Don't look like cardboard B. Don't have crazy never heard of ingredients and C. Don't cost $20 for ingredients for ONE recipe. 

Wish me luck!

Weight Loss diaries the real week 1 day 1

Gulp. 

Here it is folks. 

My weight. 

Starting weight: 214.3 lbs 

BLAH! 

Will turned 11 weeks yesterday, and it's time to get it going. 

It's week 1, and I'm doing baby steps. 

Step 1. Log all food even if I'm over calories, and to exercise twice this week. 

 Today I ate 2,158 calories. That's 158 over my goal (because I'm breastfeeding my goal is 500 higher than it would be). It's ok. Im just gonna get in the habit of logging my foods. I am much more aware of every bite I put in my mouth when I log them! Really I thought I'd be under..but oh yeah that extra coffee creamer and that Hershey kiss (or kisses) oh and bites if the boys food...yeah...

** {future steps will be to eat totally clean, real foods, run again, ect, but we are doing BABY STEPS!} 

it's humbling to have to "start over".  To have lost 80 lbs, to have run 2 half marathons, to now... 11 weeks postpartum and have gone so much backwards. I let myself have too much leeway while pregnant. 

It's sad that I was at 165 last spring now I'm back up here again. In the 200's. Where I said I'd never go again! 

Praise God for new mercies everyday. He helped me do it once, I can do it again. I WILL. 

It's on like donkey kong baby. 

(I have no clue what that means or what it's from but I always hear people say it and it sounds cool.)

Anyways...here's a cool little feature of My Fitness Pal. You can see all your past weigh ins! Here's what it looks like. 

You have to be ready.

To lose weight, you have to be ready. Mentally, strategically, and spiritually. 

Jan 1 was a good day to start again. Will was almost 2 months old. Fresh new year. New start. 

But I wasn't ready.  

Strategically I was. But mentally I wasn't. 

I lacked the heart. The motivation. And the prayer time about it. Sometimes heart comes after I start. That's what I was hoping for. But I just didn't get excited. 

And um...life with 4 boys 5 and under is busy. Very busy! Losing weight is a full time job. I have to WANT it passionately and have the heart to follow through. 

Now is the time. Today is the day I NEED to start. 

Anyone ever been here? You want to...you plan to...but then, you just don't?  I'm tired of waisting time. I'm tired of looking 6 months pregnant.  

I know what I need to do. Badly. I need to run. {or wog. ie walk/jog}. ;) 

An instructor in college use to say, "It's better caught then taught". He was talking about witnessing to people for Jesus. The more you do it, the more burdened you are for people. You can't teach heart. You catch heart! 

So, if I start running again, like really sweating, for a purpose..I know how good I'll feel! It's addictive! How far can I go today? 

The rest will follow. 

Because there's nothing more annoying than burning a few hundred calories just to eat it right back in Oreos. Right? We've all been there. Hello? Am I alone? 

Before I even worry about my food, I'm gonna go move. Really move, like sweaty, red face move like I use to in spin kinda move. Like...oh stink I'm gonna barf kinda move. Ok I don't want to barf but you know.  

I'm gonna go catch some heart. 

Love, The Curvy Housewife