Catch up!

Down 9.6 lbs! Sheesh I am a horrible blogger these days. Quick post to say I'm down almost 10 lbs! 

But.....I ate way too much over Easter weekend and am scared for weigh in day :/ 

Run or Dye 5K is in 10 days!!! And I have NOT ran 3 miles straight yet! 

Goal=Finish.  :) 

I will be back soon! 

Down 7.6 lbs, Run or Dye, and Diet Bet

Oh my my my goodness it's been way to long! I have been soooo busy....can not catch a break! I have NOT meant to be gone so long.  But life is such. 

I'm down 7.6 pounds since the last time I blogged. YAY! We are NOT doing strict Paleo/Whole 30 anymore.  I did Whole 30 for one week and here's what happened with me.  I was going a wee bit crazy.  It's so restrictive!!!! I was obsessing about food.  All I was thinking about was what I "Can't" eat.  I was so so so close to a major binge.  I haven't had binging mentality in a long time, and this was not healthy for me mentally.  Some may think, "Yeah well those temptations will pass! You just have to keep going!"  But I was gluten free for 4 months in 2013 so I know that those temptations for donuts and cupcakes DON'T disappear forever (at least not me).

I absolutely think Paleo is an amazing lifestyle for many. Especially those with health issues. I believe in it. I really do!  We have still been eating Paleo meals.  I have continued to cook the recipes and I have really been limiting gluten and sugar.  Cody is still gluten free for the most part unless he's at church or we go out to eat or something.  And the interesting thing is, now that I "Can" have whatever I want, I don't really want it.  But when I "couldn't" have bread, legumes, sugar, dairy, corn, ice cream, chocolate, grains, ect....I was dreaming about food I normally don't even want to eat!

I was also thinking a lot about WHY I have food issues.  Why I'm overweight, and why for so many years I would diet, binge, diet, binge.  For some reason as a young girl I became aware that certain food was "fattening" and that's why I was "fat".  WELL I was not fat....But I thought I was.  I would restrict foods, then binge on them, then restrict them.  Not healthy! I didn't want my kids to think of any foods as "off limits" to the point where as soon as they leave the house they want only junk.  Even though we explain we don't eat candy everyday and we don't eat a lot of gluten because it doesn't make us strong, it's reserved now for special occasions.  Now the boys don't even ask much about it. 

So....I've been doing Weight Watchers faithfully and avoided a binge. Feeewww. I feel much better.  Because what's the point of losing 15 pounds in a few weeks by restricting tons of foods (if you don't need to for health) and then gaining it all back on a binge? 

I have been watching my sugar and gluten intake a lot and I'm pretty sure my tummy issues are sugar related.  Maybe gluten too, but I am not sure.  When I finally ate gluten again after not having it for 2 weeks I didn't get sick....but when I ate sugar a different day I did.  So I am still trying to pin point it and see what helps.  

On to the next subject, I entered a 5K!!!! It's a Run or Dye (color run).  How fun! And it's in 3 weeks!!! Eeeek! I have been running again...have a long ways to go.  I also registered for Wharf to Wharf in July.  which is a 6.2 mile run. 

And about Diet Bet....I entered a challenge to lose %4 of my body weight or I lose my money! Yikes!!! I am doing pretty good on target.. 16 days to go!!!! Pray for me..lol :)

Ok, gotta go.  Be back soon! xo

Paleo Day 4

Quick update. In the car waiting while Davey is opening a bank account. So busy, so overwhelmed with all I have to do! Still missing my clothes, my silverware, and other utensils. :( 

Paleo has been good, and hard. Today is easier than yesterday. I was so grouchy, had a headache, and nausea. 

Cody's appetite has been amazing which makes me happy!!! It use to be pulling teeth to get him to eat! Now he's asking for food all day!! Wow. Very happy to see him improving. 

I was feeling homesick for my comfort foods. Sounds silly but it's true. I enjoy my coffee creamer and chocolate. Ya know? Yes you can still have dark chocolate but I have to find a good brand. Not my normal Hershey's kisses or Reese's Peanut Butter cups. 

Everyone says it gets easier so I hope it does! Last nights dinner was so good! We had church and were out and about. Shane was asking for mcdonalds, but I stayed strong. We hurried home and I whipped up bacon wrapped chicken drumsticks with baked zucchini w olive oil and seasons and strawberries. It was really good and everyone had seconds!!

 

Oyi the boys are eating soooo much! I'm gonna have to reevaluate the budget and shopping list to buy more food. They've gone through 5 bunches of bananas, a whole jug of cashews, 2 packages of bacon, 3-4 dozen eggs, and about 12 Larabars alreadysince  Monday..omgoodness. 

Sometimes I'm like "yeah I got this! I love This!!!" Then someone invites us over and I'm like "oh crud." And "do I want to live like this? Being scared of eating out? Never having donuts or muffins or chips? And always saying, don't eat that boys it has gluten!" 

But then I think of their health. Cody especially and he's already doing amazing. 

It's hard. It's a pain. It's expensive. But it's ok because we can do hard things. 

And after 30 days I plan to reintroduce a lot. Dairy, white rice, and hopefully oatmeal.  And I can make Paleo muffins. 

I love this statement from the book "It starts with food".  

"It's NOT hard. Beating cancer is hard. Losing a child is hard. Giving birth is hard. Drinking your coffee black is not hard." 

That's good perspective. And she's right! So maybe it's not "hard" but it takes getting use to, which is uncomfortable. 

Wow it's been a long time...

Life has been CRAZY! Guess what? Moving with 4 little ones is HARD. Few! At the end of the day I'm still unpacking and then fall asleep as soon as I sit down. Lol. 

We've been here 9 days now. I'm really liking it so far. 

The house is bigger than our last. It's nice open with lots of windows which I love. It has a laundry room...whoot! 

Today we all started Paleo!!!! So far it's good, but I'm really wanting chocolate...

I did ok on our budget ($350 for 2 weeks). But I'm realizing I'm gonna need to start getting Less and shopping once a week. I didn't buy any processed foods! Not even coffee creamer. Gulp. 

Shane did not like dinner. It was Honey Mustard Chicken with yam fries and kale chips. He almost barfed with the yam fries and kale. Oyi. We've got a long road ahead of us. 

"Why are you making the kids do it?" 

Well, lots of reasons. Cody (4) has tummy issues. He has hardly grown, and has no appetite ever.  Reece, Cody and Will have all had horrible croup the last two weeks. VERY scary. Reece had it the worst and could not breath well. Even a nebulizer wasn't working.  Then the baby got it, and it was again very scary. I feel like the 3 older boys have been sick all winter.  

There are more reasons but I'll leave it at that :) 

So very sad....all my good clothes from my closet got thrown away.. :( they aren't anywhere. I packed them in a black garbage bag (very bad idea) with the hangers still on them.  All our clothes for the most part was in garbage bags. 

Sigh. So I went to buy a few things at target, and I almost cried in the dressing room.  I can't beleive how FAT I am!!!!! I'm so done with it.  I hated myself in that moment. 

But now, all I want is a muffin, and I *think* I don't care about being fat. But if I was to eat a muffin I'd care after that, and be mad at myself. 

I need His help getting through the cravings.  

Will update again soon :) 

Busy

Oh my my. So sad to not have posted in forever! Our house is all boxed up. We are loading the truck tomorrow then off Saturday morning to our new home, job, church, and school! Wow can't believe it's here. 

I've been bad. Super stressed. Eating crud. Then Tuesday morning...I had a horrible pain flare up. I guess it's "IBS". Se pain I had when it was "gallbladder attacks". I haven't had one this bad in two years. I thought I was gonna have to go to the ER. I can't wait to not eat junk.

"Well you don't have to eat junk." I know. But we have no groceries. All our food is packed. We've been having family outings. Like this awesome day at the beach in Santa Monica. 

We ate at Bubba gumps Monday night then Tuesday I got the flare up. 

Anyways. I have so much to post but I'm at church in the nursing room. It's iur last service at LBC and Will is almost done nursing. Will update soon :)

Xo 

Friday's weigh in & Bikram Yoga

Lost .7 last week. 

-6.5 lbs in three weeks 

Total -34.5 pounds 

Sorry this post is late! I know you were dying to know. Just kidding. No one reads this. Except Staci. And my Grandma. Love you both ;-) 

I was glad I had a loss. I was very good all last week, but I lost over 3 the week before so I was just hoping for a loss. 

We were out of town Friday- Sunday and boy I wasn't very good food wise. This week I'm just trying to make it so I do t have a gain! Gah why is traveling so hard. 

Anyways. I've been dying to try Bikram Yoga (Hot yoga).  Our hometown has a new Bikram Yoga studio, so I talked my sis in law to go with me at 7am on Saturday.  She actually ended up dragging me out of bed to do it but I was so glad she did. 

It was HARD!!!!! I'm super sore ALL over my body. It was 105 degrees in the room, And it was 100 minuets long!  The teacher was this skinny guy that weighs probably 140 lbs.  He waked in wearing nothing but tiny little booty shorts. Not cool. 

At the start of class he told us we couldn't leave the room for the whole 90 minuets. Um, say what?! Then when I reached for my water he told me no water! Not till he said it was ok.  Now I was a little bit peeved.  But I kept on going and trying my best. I was way off what the poses should look like and half way through I realized I had a hole in my pants. Smh. 

We did these breathing exercises that was suppose to get more oxygen to our blood. Well the guy next to me seriously sounded like a zombie. I was kinda scared. 

My arms were burning because you had to have them straight up by your ears or out like airplane wings most if the class. 

He kept saying to look in the mirror but I didn't want to. I hated what I saw! Especially when I bent over and tried to fold...wasn't pretty. 

But he was pushing us, and that was good. It felt good to sweat a lot. 

I'll try another studio when we move but it HAS to be a lady teacher. Not comfortable with almost naked man yoga instructors. 

I've been thinking a lot and I've decided our whole family is going Paleo.  It's more for health reasons than weight loss.  It's just that, every time I fed my family cereal, breads, and anything processed I feel convicted. Seriously. 

It's totally ok to go out and treat them once in a while but I can't keep feeding them what I am everyday. And for my own health too. Every family has their own healthy diet needs and I know mine is Paleo. I just avoid it. I have a love/hate relationship with Paleo. "It's too hard!" "It's too expensive!" Well I can't make up excuses anymore. 

I'm thinking after we move we will take the plunge. Ps moving in 12 days. Still haven't packed. Yikes. 

Gotta go I hear the 2yo destroying his room. Sigh. 

Walking it out.

So far since weigh in I've walked Saturday, Sunday and today. 

Very happy about this. The weather has been beautiful. 

Saturday I was still a little too lenient with myself & food. But I'm working on it. Oh! 

So my juicer broke again!!!! Same break. I took the last one back to Target and exchanged it for another one. It's been a year, so I knew they wouldn't take it back. I didnt have the recipt or box. And of course!! They don't carry it anymore. 

I prayed before I went. He heard :) Thank God the manager was cool. She scanned something similar and gave me a gift card for $65. So I got this! It was the last day to get a $10 gift card when purchasing it, so I got it for $30. :) 

Still working on recipes. Glad to drink my veggies. So bad at eating them. 

We are moving in 19 days. I haven't started packing yet. Smh. I'm such a procrastinator.  

Here are my walking pics for proof! 

Saturday: 43 mins. Baby always wiggles out of Moby. 

Sunday: 16 mins. Tight schedule! So bad at selfies still. 

Monday: 25 mins. Here I didnt want to smile because people around would know I was taking a pic of myself lol 

I cut this walk short because there were two gangsters in the park. I got scared. I'm a cops daughter and everyone is suspicious ok? For real though, two vatos walked into the park and one kept looking at me. The other continued to walk and one decided to hang back. I notice things...like the Dad that stopped throwing the ball with his kid cause he was watching this guy. See, he thought he was suspicious too. The gangster saw the Dad then left. Thank God. 

Don't worry I have pepper spray. But I should bring my doggy. 

Ok night. 

Ps no offense to any gangster readers. 

PSS I'm not discriminating. He had a tattoo on his head that said "Vato". 

Just kidding. But he did have a tattoo on his head. 

Ok. Bye.