Long time!

I have no meant to neglect the blog but life. I'm taking two nursing summer pre reqs that keep me really busy! 

Today I weighed in at 188 :( I've been good on and off for months but haven't gotten below 182. In two months I turn 30. I want to enter my 30ths stronger than ever!  Strong I am getting! I deadlift 90 lbs now :) stay tuned I will post update soon :) ps I fit into a size 10 pants now! 

SLO Half Marathon & it's been a long road

I did it! My 3rd half marathon in the books! It was SUPER windy and very hilly 13 miles. 😁 

I finished in 3 hour 12 minuets. Just 3 minuets shy of a PR! If I wouldn't have stopped to use the bathroom at mile 4 and wait for 8 minuets for the porta potty I would have had a personal best! Dang it!! My running buddy did awesome she finished in 2:45! 

I plan to keep running and work on speed now. 

Here are some pics :) 

The last two miles I was DONE. All I could do was speed walk. And I was speed walking very fast lol. One marathon group passed me and said "there's one serious speed Walker!" Haha! I ran the last 1/4 mile and the boys and hubby were cheering me on at the finish line it made me a tear up. ❤️ 

I was reading some old blog posts about my first few races. I started in 2011 so wow it's been FOUR YEARS!!! Five years since I've had this blog and since trying to lose weight. 

I get down on myself that I still can NOT get out of the 180's but I got this old pic in my inbox "this day 4 years ago" my first ever triathlon. Look at me from the back! I was 215 in that pic. 

That's just so embarrassing. But here I am from the back last night at the gym after Body pump and spin. 

Yes it's taking me years to reach my goal weight but it's ok. I had two babies and one miscarriage in those years. 

I don't clog <<< hahah auto correct! BLOG** often because I feel like nothing's happening but I'm holding my breath..I think I finally may be doing something that works. And %90 of it is consistency. Which is hard for everyone but God's helping me be consistent. I'll let you know ASAP :) 😘

Sticking w It

Surprise surprise when I saw some muscles coming in! I mean...what?! This was exactly what I needed to see the other morning. Even though the scale is NOT budging I'm gonna stick with Flexibie dieting because I can eat and I'm losing inches. So I must get over the dang scale!!!! 

It was/am so reluctant to do it because it's 1800 cals a day! But I've been eating that much, plus trying to really hit protein, and inches are falling off! 3.5 off my thighs since January!! How is that possible when I haven't lost a lb?! Muscle! I'm so excited!!! I've logged my food into my fitness pal now for 36 days. I'm just gonna chill off the scale and keep doing what I've been doing (eating, weights, running). 

The Curse of the 180's

Sigh. This is the weight I've been stuck at for 10 years. Well I've weighed a lot more than I do now but I really can't get out of the 180's (except when I got married I went down to 160 and when I was pregnant w Boy 4 & got really sick and couldn't eat for 10 days I got down to 165). 

When I got pregnant w Boy 1 I was 187. 

I was 220 when I got pregnant w Boy 2. I was again 187 when I got pregnant with Boy 3. And then right around 175-180 when I got pregnant w Boy 4. 

A few months ago I was 182!!!!! And now I'm back up to 189 and I'm TRYING SO HARD to lose. I'm running so much, tons of gym time, walking, ect.  I will go down to 187, then back up 2lbs. I could punch my scale in the face. 

I've lost almost 3 inches off my thighs and two off my stomach since January. Wearing a size 12-14. But I just can't get past the number. I don't even know what to do. So in the last few months I've tried counting calories/macros pretty faithfully. Stayed the same. I've tried not eating after 5, that usually works! I've stayed the same. I've tried Weight Watchers. Stayed the same. Carb cycling lasted a minuet I admit I couldn't stick to that (at least while half marathon training). I'm so frustrated and want to give up. I need momentum. :( I just need to see something work. It's super frustrating because if I stay the same no matter what then why try? When I *know* I'm getting stronger & inches are what matter but...... 

Boy my last few blog posts sure have been discouraging and like, "Get it together woman!!" 

I will. I'm praying God helps me and gives me wisdom. 

Update & plan to bust Plateau!

Hello, it's been a good while...sorry bout that. You wouldn't believe how busy life is ! Overwhelming too. And emotional. And stressful. Prayer, walking, and my hubby are what have kept me stable lately :) More on that soon. And it's good changes coming just very overwhelming. For now...lets talk weight loss. 

Good news! I'm down 2.5 inches in my thighs and down two pant sizes since Jan 1! 

I've been running LOTS of miles 

But the scale WILL NOT BUDGE AT ALL!!! I'm so frustrated. I've been super consistent for 3 weeks and still nothing. I'll be down two then right back up two. I think maybe running has to do with it, but I have to find a solution! I want to lose 30 more by my 30th birthday which is the end of August! Gah! So...

I've been doing some digging in about plateaus. 

Today I start Carb Cyclying. I've heard great things about it helping bust past a weight you can't get past. I'm going to try it for TWO weeks. And see if it helps at all. Here's what it will look like: 

Monday: low carb 

Tuesday: high carb 

Wednesday: low carb 

Thursday: low carb

Friday's: high carb 

Sat: low carb 

Sunday: high carb

I'll still be counting my calories/macros and staying under 1800. 

I'll keep Ya all posted!! 

Update

Well 2015 has not been my favorite year so far. Lots of trials for us one after another. 

Update on Shane: he seems to be all better PTL! If you follow me on IG or facebook you know we came home two weeks ago and he still couldn't use his left hand, he had arm pain and his feet "burned". All symptoms from damaged nerves in his spine. All the tests came back negative for autoimmune diseases THANK GOD! I used my oils on him when we got home and after a few days he had no more pain or symptoms and a few days later his hand was working! Praise the Lord. Google "mystery polio like virus paralysis in kids is puzzling doctors"...doctors never did know what he had but I truly believe it was this polio like virus. Even the MRI scans show damaged nerves in the kids in the same spots. 

Sadly, a few days after we got home my sweet cousin passed away. She was only 21, my heart broke for her parents and our whole family. I travelled up to davis for her funeral where SO many people showed up. I will miss you so much Cece. Death is so hard. I just saw her at Thanksgiving and I wish I would've hugged her longer and talked to her more :( 

The day after her funeral my husbands grandma had a very bad stroke. :( she is 77, and was so active, lively, sharp, independent, avid gardener and ate well. She had been feeling faint and weak for a few weeks prior... It's been so sad for the family to see her unable to walk and talk or move. We travelled up north this last weekend to see her. It was very humbling and sad. Praying she will recover!

We've been away from home for the past 4 weekends w everything :( I look forwarding to staying home for a good while and getting back on track. 

Today I weighed in at 186.3

I need to get out of the 180's!!!!

I have only worked out a handful of times since Jan!!! AWFUL! My half marathon is coming up! Today I am sitting down w my planner and highlighter and scheduling my runs and life. 

OH!!! BIG NEWS!!!!!!! 

W shane in The hospital, the Lord used that to speak to my heart (again!) about something. I felt like the Lord was telling me it's time....and that He wants me to be a nurse! My hubby has been encouraging me to do this for years. So when we got home I looked into it and the Lord just open doors and I start this month for my pre-Rex! I'm very excited and nervous I don't know how long the whole process will take, it will probably take me a while being a wife and mommy to 4 littles. And I am not quitting photography. Never! :) 

 

Shane in Children's Hospital

What happened?? 

(If we are friends on FB forgive me for repeating the story! Wanted to write it out once because people keep asking me what happened.) 

Last weekend We were in morgan hill visiting family and everything was fine. We were in the car on Monday driving to my sister in laws house and Shane (7) suddenly started crying saying his head, arms and back hurt. He was sweating a lot too. When we got to where we were going we gave him Advil and a shower and he went to sleep for a couple hours or so. When he woke up he called out to me and when was trying to get dressed he said he couldn't use his left hand, that "it didn't work."  We left to head home back to santa Maria and not long after being in the car Shane threw up quite a bit. 

After that he felt better but he couldn't use his hand at all. 

When we got to Santa Maria I took him to the ER, after a clear CT scan and X-rays of his arm they thought he maybe got hurt, a concussion and an injured nerve in his arm. When we were leaving the ER Monday night he fell in the hallway of the hospital. He couldn't walk right so I carried him to the car. He said he was just tired. (He really wanted to go home). He slept a good nine hours Monday but when he woke up Tuesday around 10:30am he fell in the bathroom and couldn't walk straight. I called his pediatrician and he said to take him back to the ER. 

He had an hour and fifteen minute long MRI which he was awake for. He was such a trooper I'm so proud of him. His MRI came back clear (as far as the ER dr was concerned). I went home to pick up some dinner w news that he would need to follow up with a pediatric neurologist this week. While at home getting dinner my husband called and said they were transferring him to Children's Hospital. I was shocked. My husband and Shane left at 5am this morning in an ambulance for Children's which is a 3hr drive.  

He still couldn't use his legs or his left hand and that's why they were so concerned he needed to see a pediatric neurologist ASAP.  I arrived this afternoon . My mom drove 3 hours up to watch Reece and Cody (I took Will). Last night a friend brought us dinner, and when I told her he was being transferred she went to get us some groceries for my mom and the boys AND she left a $50 gas card for us. Amazing...I am so thankful. My other friend stayed with the boys until 10:30 last night while I said bye to Shane which was so hard. My sister in law picked cody up from school yesterday and another friend watched Will during Shane's MRI and I dropped reece off at preschool . I'm SO thankful for everyone's help! Another friend brought fa meal for my mom and the boys tonight. And SO MANY people are praying for shane I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude!!!! And prayers are WORKING! 

As of this afternoon Shane is WALKING!!!! Thank you Jesus! His hand is still limp but he can now hold up two fingers!!! Last night he couldn't lift one finger!! Seems he is healing and I pray it continues!!!! ....BUT....the doctors here are pretty adamant about him getting another 2 hour MRI AND a spinal tap tomorrow. :( They are looking for an infection in his brain or spine and several other things that scare the crud out of me. He will be sedated for both so he will be under for about 4 hours (please pray for This!) They told us he could feel better now then Go downhill fast again so they need to know what's going on. They are also looking for auto immune diseases. 

I *believe they think it's something viral, an infection or something that could have perhaps been triggerd or related to the influenza flu he just had. 

I am confident that God is taking care of him and that He is answering the prayers of his people. I am so grateful because this has been a fast paced hard trial for us. He was fine one minuet the next going down hill. I know it's the weirdest thing. He's in good spirits and he is enjoying all the attention :) thank you a ok for the love and prayers please keep them coming. He will have an IV all night and tomorrow he cannot eat or drink anything. :( I desperately want to be home with all my

babies safe and sound.

I read this verse this morning in my devotions and I am claiming it for this. We don't rely on men or technology but on God!! 

 

Psalms 20:7 Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the LORD our God.