Um, why am I still fat?

Sometime last night I realized...it's been almost 3 years since I started on this weight loss "journey". {I'm going to stop calling it that because really it's a life style..} I can say that now my husband, children and I ARE much healthier and make normal healthy everyday decisions. Like to not buy donuts on a regular basis. For example.

Ok so, maybe I was always on a weight loss quest since I was a toddler. {yes it's true. My dad was a professional body builder when I was little and "we" always counted our calories and worked out. I wanted to be just like him!}. I've told you all before how I'd wake up before kindergarten and do Denise Austin's aerobics on the TV. #90sgirlsrule

Even all through high school I would try to lose weight even though I was a whopping 140 pounds. My biggest complaint yet one of my best features were my legs. They've always been big & muscular "gymnast" legs. But I always had cellulite right below my butt on my thighs and I detested them. I felt like I was the only "fat" cheerleader out there. (not true).
Anyways..... let's take a quick look back over the last almost 3 years and see.....
WHY I'M STILL FAT!
July 2009~ two months postpartum after having Cody, our 2nd son. Starting weight: 244 lbs. (ohmyguacamole).
May 2010~ found out we were pregnant, very excited.
July 2010~ lost our sweet baby 12 weeks 6 days pregnant. weight:208 lbs.
Feb 6 2011~ ran first 1/2 marathon at 187 pounds
April 4 2011~ found out we were pregnant with Reece!! on our drive to Tennessee. Very excited. weight: 193 pounds (don't ask me how I remember all my weights).
June 2011~ 4 months pregnant. weight 184 lbs, lowest weight since before my first son Shane. (I was so sick from gallstones).
July 2011~ Had surgery, so much better, eating again, not sick, happy pregnant lady.
December 5 2011~ went into labor, weight: 228 lbs
December 8 2011~ weight: 214 lbs
April 2012, week before Easter, weight: 204.4 lowest since giving birth to Reece
Monday after Easter 2012, weight: 209 pounds. (who gains 5 pounds in one weekend?)
Today, April 17 2012, after the Easter festivities and a week of hard work on WW, weight: 205.9

Feeewwww that was hard to write. It's hard to read too. I feel like after almost 3 years I should have been at my goal looonnngggg ago. Granted I was pregnant for about a year of that time, but still.

I am TIRED OF IT. If I would have not went crazy Easter weekend and gained 5 pounds I would be down even more probably. And yes even if I lose slowly, although frustrating, I will NOT quit!

I am loving Weight Watchers. I lost about 3 pounds this week. I still feel like that's not enough since I was 204.4. I want to get under that. I want to get under 200...AGAIN.

I will tell you another secret. My brother in law is getting married July 7, (to the sweetest girl btw) and some friends from high school are going to be there. Now, I really don't care about what these people think of me, but let me explain....I saw some of them at my heaviest weight after Cody. So. Very. Embarrassing. For them to remember me as a 140 lb cheerleader senior year, than 6 years later see me when I am home visiting 100 pounds heavier...that's just unacceptable.

I know I won't be at goal by then...but I want to work hard to see how far I can come in that time. Can I also just say that I have an amazing husband that has supported me and stuck by me through all this and I feel like HE deserves to be seen with a healthy wife. Not one that's let herself go. I want him to be like...."BOOYA old peeps. Look at my smokin' wife. Yeah. She's with me." Ya know?

Once again, I want to tell all you wonderful readers (and I do love you all and thank you all for commenting!! They mean so much!) that I AM COMMITTED.

OK. End of Rant. Thanks for reading!

Love, The Curvy Housewife