Weigh In 4/28/12

Last week 206.8
This week 203.9

Ever have scale dilemmas?? Well, my Weight Watchers meeting is at 7:30 AM Saturday mornings.  I went to bed at 12:30 AM. I slept through my alarm!!

I woke up, brushed my teeth, got dressed, and headed to the meeting. I was really bummed because I couldn't get Reece to nurse well before I left, and I was in a hurry. He's been sleeping through the night...need I say more?? Definitely had several ounces in there.
When I got on the scale at WW it read, 205.6. Down 1.2 from last week. I was ok with that. Not thrilled since I was really good and worked hard this week. But I accepted it.

I decided to WI when I got home after I fed Reece just to see.  I usually ALWAYS count my home scale since I never want any confusion, but since I re-joined WW I wanted to go by their scale. 
After I fed him I was shocked to see 203.9.  Wow! That's the lowest I've been since having Reece!! Whoot! That also brings me to a total of 40.1 lbs lost since July 2009. Since I've always been using my scale, I know I really have lost this weight.  But my dilemma is, do I keep weighing in at my house after WW or should I just weigh at WW and use their scale?? I mean if there is a .5-1 pound difference than next week when I weigh there and it if it says 203.0 that's 2 pounds according to them! But only .9 according to my scale...ya know?? What should I do??

Kimberlynn and I have become accountability partners. It's really helping! We spoke last night on the phone and it was great. :) We were talking about how freeing it is to not weigh every day. Honestly I want to weigh in one time a week on one scale...so I suppose I should hope Reece eats before I leave for WI than count WW scale right?? But if I did that today than I wouldn't be as motivated as I am now. Know what I mean?? Ugh I hate the scale.
D I L E M M A.

Anyways. The meeting was really motivating today. One lady there had lost 48 pounds! Another hit -70 this morning and spoke about it a little bit. I really like what someone said today....

   
So I made peace with the 1.2 pounds. Although I was REALLY hoping to get below where I was on Easter Weekend.  {According to my scale I did, see how this is confusing?} 
I'm thrilled to lose 2.9 pounds or 1.2 pounds. Either way I lost. 

I am changing.  I really am.  I am getting full faster. My cravings have changed a lot. I want results. 

Here's to a good week for all of us.

Love, The Curvy Housewife

Um, why am I still fat?

Sometime last night I realized...it's been almost 3 years since I started on this weight loss "journey". {I'm going to stop calling it that because really it's a life style..} I can say that now my husband, children and I ARE much healthier and make normal healthy everyday decisions. Like to not buy donuts on a regular basis. For example.

Ok so, maybe I was always on a weight loss quest since I was a toddler. {yes it's true. My dad was a professional body builder when I was little and "we" always counted our calories and worked out. I wanted to be just like him!}. I've told you all before how I'd wake up before kindergarten and do Denise Austin's aerobics on the TV. #90sgirlsrule

Even all through high school I would try to lose weight even though I was a whopping 140 pounds. My biggest complaint yet one of my best features were my legs. They've always been big & muscular "gymnast" legs. But I always had cellulite right below my butt on my thighs and I detested them. I felt like I was the only "fat" cheerleader out there. (not true).
Anyways..... let's take a quick look back over the last almost 3 years and see.....
WHY I'M STILL FAT!
July 2009~ two months postpartum after having Cody, our 2nd son. Starting weight: 244 lbs. (ohmyguacamole).
May 2010~ found out we were pregnant, very excited.
July 2010~ lost our sweet baby 12 weeks 6 days pregnant. weight:208 lbs.
Feb 6 2011~ ran first 1/2 marathon at 187 pounds
April 4 2011~ found out we were pregnant with Reece!! on our drive to Tennessee. Very excited. weight: 193 pounds (don't ask me how I remember all my weights).
June 2011~ 4 months pregnant. weight 184 lbs, lowest weight since before my first son Shane. (I was so sick from gallstones).
July 2011~ Had surgery, so much better, eating again, not sick, happy pregnant lady.
December 5 2011~ went into labor, weight: 228 lbs
December 8 2011~ weight: 214 lbs
April 2012, week before Easter, weight: 204.4 lowest since giving birth to Reece
Monday after Easter 2012, weight: 209 pounds. (who gains 5 pounds in one weekend?)
Today, April 17 2012, after the Easter festivities and a week of hard work on WW, weight: 205.9

Feeewwww that was hard to write. It's hard to read too. I feel like after almost 3 years I should have been at my goal looonnngggg ago. Granted I was pregnant for about a year of that time, but still.

I am TIRED OF IT. If I would have not went crazy Easter weekend and gained 5 pounds I would be down even more probably. And yes even if I lose slowly, although frustrating, I will NOT quit!

I am loving Weight Watchers. I lost about 3 pounds this week. I still feel like that's not enough since I was 204.4. I want to get under that. I want to get under 200...AGAIN.

I will tell you another secret. My brother in law is getting married July 7, (to the sweetest girl btw) and some friends from high school are going to be there. Now, I really don't care about what these people think of me, but let me explain....I saw some of them at my heaviest weight after Cody. So. Very. Embarrassing. For them to remember me as a 140 lb cheerleader senior year, than 6 years later see me when I am home visiting 100 pounds heavier...that's just unacceptable.

I know I won't be at goal by then...but I want to work hard to see how far I can come in that time. Can I also just say that I have an amazing husband that has supported me and stuck by me through all this and I feel like HE deserves to be seen with a healthy wife. Not one that's let herself go. I want him to be like...."BOOYA old peeps. Look at my smokin' wife. Yeah. She's with me." Ya know?

Once again, I want to tell all you wonderful readers (and I do love you all and thank you all for commenting!! They mean so much!) that I AM COMMITTED.

OK. End of Rant. Thanks for reading!

Love, The Curvy Housewife

Pssssst.

I have a secret.

No, it's not that I've gained 4 pounds since last Friday.....

It's not that my couch is covered in laundry while I write this post.....

It's not that I wear a tummy tucker to church. every. single. Sunday.....{shhhhh}

It's not that I can't handle chocolate chips in my house....or Easter candy...{what Easter candy?}

It's not that I hardly ever make my bed....

It's not that I'm on my 3rd cup of coffee for the day....

It's not that I am worried about this half marathon coming up.....

It's not that I'm worried about telling this secret, that I may not follow through with it....

It's that I have a new goal. A goal that to some people may seem silly....but to me seems awesome. I want to become a Weight Watchers Life Time member!!! Why??? Because it's a life style. NOT a diet. You become a life time member when you reach w/in 2lbs of your goal weight.

I'm not naive enough to think I won't need to keep the healthy habits I've developed while getting to goal weight. What better way than to attend meetings for free? You may think it's silly, but like I said in the last post, I'm all in. I am COMMITTED. So to me, its brilliant.


What's a goal you have??

Love, The Curvy Housewife

Committed

Committed.

That is a BIG word. Wow. With commitment I could get a lot done!! Other than being a wife and mom, me committing to something is VERY difficult. I hate to go back on my word or to not follow through with something. So I don't commit to begin with.

Since I have been losing .4 - 1 lb a week for the last month, I frustratingly wanted to figure out why. I read/heard/ or came up with several reasons: 1. you aren't eating enough since you are breastfeeding 2. you are eating too much 3. muscle weighs more than fat 4. just a bad week... ect.

You all KNOW I love My Fitness Pal. I am a hardcore advocate for it. It works. In fact, counting calories and Weight Watchers have been the only success I've ever had!!!

Since I am breastfeeding and do not plan on quitting that any time soon, I needed to come up with something that is bfing friendly, where I can see success. I've been thinking, praying and pondering this since weigh in on Friday. Luckily my hubby said he supports me in what ever I want to do, as long as I'm COMMITTED.

I was/am committed to My Fitness Pal. I was doing really well with tracking and staying with in my calories. And in NO WAY is it My Fitness Pal's fault the scale wasn't moving.
My friend suggested I try the Zig Zag diet (staggering your caloric intake so you are not eating the same amount every day). I think it does work, it makes since, especially when you hit a plateau. I may try it one day.

Sadly the last four days have reaped a hard consequence. I am up 4 pounds. O. M. Goodness. That's basically a months of hard work. Hoping it goes away soon.. you know bloat and what not. {I wish}.

So I've decided to COMMIT to something. Something I know works, that is Breastfeeding friendly, that has a great supportive community, that has a reputation for success. WEIGHT WATCHERS. Kelly and I have been at this at the same time for a while and she is currently doing AMAZING. She's been doing WW the whole time.
So, I paid for a monthly pass and got the second month free. Last time I did WW I was the exact starting weight I am now, and I lost 14 pounds, and it's what got me into Onderland. Some ridiculously annoying name for a number we all want to see on the scale..somewhere I want to be again. 9 pounds to go for me until I see that number.

I'm all in. I am committed. I will keep going, even if it is only a pound a week. I am already in the grove of it since I was doing My Fitness Pal. Which by the way I will still do to track my progress and workouts. I'm anxious, a little frustrated that I have to re-learn everything, nervous it won't work, but mostly EXCITED. My weigh in's will be Saturday's now since I can only for sure go to the 7:30 am meetings.

Stay tuned for some kick butt.

Love, The Curvy Housewife

PointsPlus

I've heard some people say, Weight Watchers is for weak people, really over weight people, that it's the same as counting your calories but you pay for it, ect, ect. Let me just say, that's all
R U B B I S H.
I lost the first 35 pounds counting my calories myself. I grew up very aware and able to count calories. That's what happens when your Dad is a competitive body builder. My Mom was awesome. She was so supportive and always made low fat low calorie foods for my Dad (and us). It's not hard for me. It's just a little boring. WW is fun to me. There is this community of people that are in the same boat. There are millions of recipes, ideas, tips, books, ect, for WW.

I went to Weight Watchers today to buy a new 3 month journal and to find out about the PointsPlus. Pleased that I am down 15 pounds from when I started at the end of July. Obviously I should have lost a lot more in that amount of time, but it's better than -0 or gain!

After we lost the baby in July, I really needed something to distract me. And WW did just that. Learning the program and getting hooked to it. By the way, today is exactly 1 month shy from when the baby was due. So on Jan 15, it's gonna be a real tough day. I can't believe it. Seeing my friends that were pregnant at the same time get ready to deliver is hard. In some weird way I feel even worse because I have only lost 15 pounds since then. I feel like I would be less sad if I at least lost 25+. Silly I know.

Anyways, the new program seems a bit confusing. I am all for eating real, whole foods, and it makes sense to plan the program like that. But I will get use to it. I'm gonna give myself a sticker for losing %7 of my body weight on WW.

I am excited to start the new PointsPlus tomorrow and to see how it goes. My new weigh in days will be Thursday.

Cheers to tracking! (with a big cup of lemon water:)

Oh and tomorrow is my AUDITIONS FOR CYCLE! At 1pm. Praying I'll do good and be able to teach soon! I practiced today at gym for an hour. And how could I forget to mention... I ran 1/2 mile in 5 minuets on the treadmill! I just wanted to see how far I could go at that pace. It was tough but great to work on speed.